Jyky
19-09-12, 11:31
Hello , I'm here right now very scared and worried. I've suffered from depression for a while but it came to a point nearly3 years ago when it got too much, I slowly got to a normal state but always with the random bout of anxiety and panic. Things have got to a point where my relationships fail cos of my moods.
especially at winter times.
My parents have told me thro the years they have noticed differences to my personality.
Recently another failed relationship pushed me further into depression.
I've been in a bad state of depression and been put on 20mg cit,day 3 and I feel my anxiety is so bad, I've woke up with bad panicky feelings and anxiety. I don't want to be alone but I suppose I got to learn. I'm so lonely without my partner and I wish her back and feel like I'll never recover again.
But my main worry is these tablets, I've read so many posts/diaries on NMP and some of them have been so scary. Ppl who have been on them for so long with no benefits, are there ppl here who have used the, and they have worked??
I declined these ssris three years ago, but this time I chose to use them because I want to be rid of this, but it seems like you become a prisoner to it. I'm so scared of what I'll become. I have a son and I have to look after him on days and I need to function. Pls anyone help with advice, I'm really stuck in some horrible place and it hurts so much in my chest knowing I can't even stop them if I wanted to. Sorry if I'm making no sense I'm tryin to be writing while my head is all over the place.
especially at winter times.
My parents have told me thro the years they have noticed differences to my personality.
Recently another failed relationship pushed me further into depression.
I've been in a bad state of depression and been put on 20mg cit,day 3 and I feel my anxiety is so bad, I've woke up with bad panicky feelings and anxiety. I don't want to be alone but I suppose I got to learn. I'm so lonely without my partner and I wish her back and feel like I'll never recover again.
But my main worry is these tablets, I've read so many posts/diaries on NMP and some of them have been so scary. Ppl who have been on them for so long with no benefits, are there ppl here who have used the, and they have worked??
I declined these ssris three years ago, but this time I chose to use them because I want to be rid of this, but it seems like you become a prisoner to it. I'm so scared of what I'll become. I have a son and I have to look after him on days and I need to function. Pls anyone help with advice, I'm really stuck in some horrible place and it hurts so much in my chest knowing I can't even stop them if I wanted to. Sorry if I'm making no sense I'm tryin to be writing while my head is all over the place.