StressedAndDepressed
19-09-12, 16:13
I ended up incarcerated for just a couple of weeks for SH and suicidal feelings. All they really did was keep me safe and change my meds. Am now on quetiapine 25mg 2x a day and duloxetine (2 weeks into both).
I think that in hospital I just worked out how to blank out all emotional stuff and the constant questions (which don't have answers but were driving me crazy as I kept trying to work them out!). At home, there are too many triggers. Particular times of the day, activities I used to do, people not calling (and, strangely, I get freaked out when they do). If I can keep my mind blank and factual I'm ok but can't do this the whole time. Too many things are around to set it all off.
I've tried going out, but people and normal things in general are causing me to either want to cry, panic or even both. Am not joking, I just panicked looking for mustard in my local & very quiet shop. Then I nearly ended up in tears while panicking.
I'm not suicidal but the SH has started up again. Home care seem to be completely unconcerned by this. As long as I'm not suicidal they're not offering any help. I saw them yesterday and left in tears. This is after they reminded me of their helpline number. I'm assuming unless I feel worse I shouldn't call. I did call them a day or so after getting out of hospital but felt that the person answering thought I shouldn't have done.
I'm really very scared as well, this is a place I've not been to before (SH particularly) and don't want to wind up in hospital again. Hospital and I really don't get on.
It seems that although I'm not coping too well, I'm not ill enough for anyone to help. I'm not doing anything dangerous but really worried about where it'll all go.
Of course, I'll get help if things do deteriorate, please don't worry about me. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice?
:shrug::scared15:
I think that in hospital I just worked out how to blank out all emotional stuff and the constant questions (which don't have answers but were driving me crazy as I kept trying to work them out!). At home, there are too many triggers. Particular times of the day, activities I used to do, people not calling (and, strangely, I get freaked out when they do). If I can keep my mind blank and factual I'm ok but can't do this the whole time. Too many things are around to set it all off.
I've tried going out, but people and normal things in general are causing me to either want to cry, panic or even both. Am not joking, I just panicked looking for mustard in my local & very quiet shop. Then I nearly ended up in tears while panicking.
I'm not suicidal but the SH has started up again. Home care seem to be completely unconcerned by this. As long as I'm not suicidal they're not offering any help. I saw them yesterday and left in tears. This is after they reminded me of their helpline number. I'm assuming unless I feel worse I shouldn't call. I did call them a day or so after getting out of hospital but felt that the person answering thought I shouldn't have done.
I'm really very scared as well, this is a place I've not been to before (SH particularly) and don't want to wind up in hospital again. Hospital and I really don't get on.
It seems that although I'm not coping too well, I'm not ill enough for anyone to help. I'm not doing anything dangerous but really worried about where it'll all go.
Of course, I'll get help if things do deteriorate, please don't worry about me. Has anyone experienced anything similar? Any advice?
:shrug::scared15: