hannah26
23-09-12, 08:24
Ok so last night was probably the worse night ever of my life so far with regards to panic attack.
Let me explain a little, so I have been fighting constant anxiety for about 3 weeks now all day everyday and night, I have been on meds for about a week now 80 mg of propranolol and 10mg of citalopram. Last night I felt ok, I was looking after my little sister and although anxious I was ok. All of a sudden I felt the panic kick in, arms went cold, couldn't breathe, face arms and legs going numb, heart racing, obsessive thoughts. I could not control it, my mum was home by this point and I broke down. Then I started thinking about weird things like the sky was too big and what was underneath the earth!! Really weird but I just couldn't stop. My mum told me after it was lke I was a different person or someone on drugs screamng, pulling on my clothes, trying to get out the front door. I just grabbed my phone and dialled 999. Something I have said I would never do. But in my mind something was wrong, I felt wild and crazy and not in a good way, out of control. Ii scared myself badly.
The ambulance came with the nicest paramedics ever. I apologised over and over, I felt ashamed that I had called them, they couldn't do anything really but they made me calm down and I felt better.
I couldn't sleep, felt anxious and everytime I closed my eyes I felt the weird thoughts again.
I've woken up now after a night of very little sleep. Still feel a bit anxious and scared of what happened. I'm still having the odd thoughts a bit.
Should I stop the meds? Could it be that? Or is it a reaction from holding it all in for 3 weeks?
I'm still scared and unsure what to do, I feel like I'm going mad and will end up in a mental hospital!! Why am I scared of the world? I just can't stop thinking about how big it is and I have feelings like I'll fall off!!! So weird but very scary.
I'm sorry for the long post, I felt like I needed to get it out.
Any advice would be great!!
Thank you
Hannah x x x
Let me explain a little, so I have been fighting constant anxiety for about 3 weeks now all day everyday and night, I have been on meds for about a week now 80 mg of propranolol and 10mg of citalopram. Last night I felt ok, I was looking after my little sister and although anxious I was ok. All of a sudden I felt the panic kick in, arms went cold, couldn't breathe, face arms and legs going numb, heart racing, obsessive thoughts. I could not control it, my mum was home by this point and I broke down. Then I started thinking about weird things like the sky was too big and what was underneath the earth!! Really weird but I just couldn't stop. My mum told me after it was lke I was a different person or someone on drugs screamng, pulling on my clothes, trying to get out the front door. I just grabbed my phone and dialled 999. Something I have said I would never do. But in my mind something was wrong, I felt wild and crazy and not in a good way, out of control. Ii scared myself badly.
The ambulance came with the nicest paramedics ever. I apologised over and over, I felt ashamed that I had called them, they couldn't do anything really but they made me calm down and I felt better.
I couldn't sleep, felt anxious and everytime I closed my eyes I felt the weird thoughts again.
I've woken up now after a night of very little sleep. Still feel a bit anxious and scared of what happened. I'm still having the odd thoughts a bit.
Should I stop the meds? Could it be that? Or is it a reaction from holding it all in for 3 weeks?
I'm still scared and unsure what to do, I feel like I'm going mad and will end up in a mental hospital!! Why am I scared of the world? I just can't stop thinking about how big it is and I have feelings like I'll fall off!!! So weird but very scary.
I'm sorry for the long post, I felt like I needed to get it out.
Any advice would be great!!
Thank you
Hannah x x x