S**T day. Fed up with it all.

[Lissa101]

I've been doing really well lately. Not in terms of feeling a huge amount better but just in learning not to worry about my feelings. I've been getting out the house a lot more and feeling like I can function even though I'm far from being recovered.

One of the things I've really been trying not to worry about is my side effects from meds. I've had really bad headaches and dizzyness the past few days plus disorientation. But like I said I've been ignoring them and just getting on with it and things have generally been ok.

Then today I took a dizzy spell just as I was going down the stairs in my house and I fell all the way down. It's really shattered my confidence and made me feel useless again. Most of all I'm just so, so fed up of having to fight my way through every single day. I also landed on my tailbone and can't sit down now :weep:

When will it all just end....

[radoel]

It will end soon - I had a very bad day yesterday and felt exactly the same, but today I have felt so much better and feel much more optimistic.
I still am suffering with meds side effects but know its temporary and its that what keeps me going.

[Annie0904]

Oh Lissa, what an awful day for you, so sorry to hear about it..you need to spend the rest of the day giving yourself some TLC and a nice hot bath might ease your back. I fell off some ladders a few months ago and fractured metatarsals in my foot, yesterday I tripped on the mat and hurt my toes again so today has not been the best for me either. Don't let it get you down though, you have been doing really well and unfortunately this has happened and you are hurt physically too which makes it feel even worse I know. Have a restful evening and I hope you will start to feel better again soon. sending you lots of :hugs::hugs::hugs:

[dez]

I can totally sympathise with you Lissa. I'm soooooooo fed up with feeling dizzy all the time. Hopefully it will get better soon. Stick with it! As I keep on hearing from everyone on this site.

[Lissa101]

Thanks for your replies, I felt so crap I actually accepted an invite to the pub! I just thought 'I feel so bad what harm can it do?'. Had a great night, 2 glasses of wine, now off to bed and very happy. My tail bone still hurts a LOT! Will be sooo humiliated if I have to go to A & E and have my ass x-ray'd!

Sure I'll have a sore head (and a sore ass) tomorrrow but very happy that I decided to go out and socialise rather than sit at home and be sad.

Thankx again, this forum has helped me feel better so many times x

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So bad end to the night. Boyf, who has bipolar and gets angry sometimes, wasn't very happy at me going out and getting drunk with friends. He got rough with me when I got home. So tomoz I have to wake up to a handover and work out what I'm going to do about it. Not the kind of person that would put up with this from a man but don't think I can face leaving and being on my own right now.

[fozzy is crying]

Thanks for your replies, I felt so crap I actually accepted an invite to the pub! I just thought 'I feel so bad what harm can it do?'. Had a great night, 2 glasses of wine, now off to bed and very happy. My tail bone still hurts a LOT! Will be sooo humiliated if I have to go to A & E and have my ass x-ray'd!

Sure I'll have a sore head (and a sore ass) tomorrrow but very happy that I decided to go out and socialise rather than sit at home and be sad.

Thankx again, this forum has helped me feel better so many times x

---------- Post added 27-09-12 at 00:20 ---------- Previous post was 26-09-12 at 21:45 ----------

So bad end to the night. Boyf, who has bipolar and gets angry sometimes, wasn't very happy at me going out and getting drunk with friends. He got rough with me when I got home. So tomoz I have to wake up to a handover and work out what I'm going to do about it. Not the kind of person that would put up with this from a man but don't think I can face leaving and being on my own right now.

Anyone getting rough with anyone no matter the reason in my book is not on.

That said have you got anyone else you can talk to and give you support like family or friends?

Gordon

[merlotsmum]

Thanks for your replies, I felt so crap I actually accepted an invite to the pub! I just thought 'I feel so bad what harm can it do?'. Had a great night, 2 glasses of wine, now off to bed and very happy. My tail bone still hurts a LOT! Will be sooo humiliated if I have to go to A & E and have my ass x-ray'd!

Sure I'll have a sore head (and a sore ass) tomorrrow but very happy that I decided to go out and socialise rather than sit at home and be sad.

Thankx again, this forum has helped me feel better so many times x

---------- Post added 27-09-12 at 00:20 ---------- Previous post was 26-09-12 at 21:45 ----------

So bad end to the night. Boyf, who has bipolar and gets angry sometimes, wasn't very happy at me going out and getting drunk with friends. He got rough with me when I got home. So tomoz I have to wake up to a handover and work out what I'm going to do about it. Not the kind of person that would put up with this from a man but don't think I can face leaving and being on my own right now.

Hunnie, I hope you got your tailbone sorted, if you have damaged your coccyx it can really affect your body balance - I discovered mine was by having Bowen Therapy. It would be worth a x ray.

Also, of course don't know you personally but no one deserves to be treat rough, I speak from experience after an abusive relationship that lasted for 2 and half years. It was over 4 years since we split but is has affected me badly and I would say a lot of my current state of mind if because of being in this abusive relationship and there is going to be a lot of therapy to get "me" back. I wish I had got out of it sooner but hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Please take care xxx

[Lissa101]

Thanks MM and Fozzy. The issue was that he's a recovering alcoholic and took offence at me coming home after having a drink and being all happy and merry. We were sitting on the sofa bickering and the next thing I knew I was pinned against the wall with his hand around my throat.

So wierd, been together 5 years and its never happened before.