Brigid
26-09-12, 17:55
OK so i'm Brigid and i have what could be considered at the moment crippling anxiety issues. I hadn't really given it the proper thought until quite recently. I have just escaped an oppressive relationship with my Narcissistic mother and I've been through two years of cancer with my lovely fiance (he's OK now yay:D) but i was shocked when i had a panic attack a little over 2 months ago in my local town shopping center and practically ran home, when i got through the door i was pretty hysterical, shaking, crying having trouble controlling my breathing......fairly typical panic attack so i'm told, but i did not know what the hell was going on, honestly i thought i was mad .
I've been unemployed for roughly four years, between caring for my physically and mentally messed up mum through, illnesses real and fake (some a good mix of both)and my fella with lymphoma i didn't have the chance to work. But recently i've been trying to get back to work unfortunately with little success, the anxiety is unbearable, it's like a wall is thrown up and i just can't do what is needed of me, i feel like an ineffective human being and that i'm letting myself and my fella down.
I'm gonna keep trying though and i hope reaching out to others to can be a part of my recovery.
I've been unemployed for roughly four years, between caring for my physically and mentally messed up mum through, illnesses real and fake (some a good mix of both)and my fella with lymphoma i didn't have the chance to work. But recently i've been trying to get back to work unfortunately with little success, the anxiety is unbearable, it's like a wall is thrown up and i just can't do what is needed of me, i feel like an ineffective human being and that i'm letting myself and my fella down.
I'm gonna keep trying though and i hope reaching out to others to can be a part of my recovery.