kitsune
27-09-12, 01:58
So I've suffered with anxiety problems since I was a kid, but it's been getting much worse lately and it's just pretty much destroyed a shot I had at a relationship.
I've had bad anxiety problems since I was a kid and lately it's been getting worse. I met a girl which lifted my spirits somewhat but it's already (I'm pretty sure) destroyed the relationship. Basically, we had sex, and I couldn't perform, I've always had performance anxiety and it just didn't go well, so I started overcompensating and tried to talk to her about it and voiced my concern that if sex was very important to her in a relationship, I would need her to be patient with me since I have anxiety issues that cause me to struggle with sex. I told her I was worried as to whether she was in this for sex or because she liked me and wanted to have a relationship. Thinking back I shouldn't have said anything but there was no hiding it anyway.
On top of the fact that she's probably gonna dump me next time we meet up, I have a job that I hate that makes me miserable, I have constant anxiety about everything, I've withdrawn almost completely from social activity, I have no confidence whatsoever, I drink like a fish, I want a relationship but my anxiety makes it impossible, I just feel like I'm stuck in a horrible rut of misery and fear. I want to start a new life and be free from anxiety and depression, but I don't see how.
I can't eat, I constantly want to just curl up in a ball and cry because I just wish it would go away. I'm afraid. I'm afraid it won't ever go away and I'll never have the life I want. I'm 23 and I just feel like I'm getting older and older and I'm never gonna have a stable relationship or a job I can stand or care about. I can't form friendships or relationships. It's ruining my life. I go to work and just feel irritable and anxious since I hate it so much. I just want to be happy but I just want to cry all the time.
Can anyone tell me how I can ever get out of this mess, or indeed IF I can?
I've had bad anxiety problems since I was a kid and lately it's been getting worse. I met a girl which lifted my spirits somewhat but it's already (I'm pretty sure) destroyed the relationship. Basically, we had sex, and I couldn't perform, I've always had performance anxiety and it just didn't go well, so I started overcompensating and tried to talk to her about it and voiced my concern that if sex was very important to her in a relationship, I would need her to be patient with me since I have anxiety issues that cause me to struggle with sex. I told her I was worried as to whether she was in this for sex or because she liked me and wanted to have a relationship. Thinking back I shouldn't have said anything but there was no hiding it anyway.
On top of the fact that she's probably gonna dump me next time we meet up, I have a job that I hate that makes me miserable, I have constant anxiety about everything, I've withdrawn almost completely from social activity, I have no confidence whatsoever, I drink like a fish, I want a relationship but my anxiety makes it impossible, I just feel like I'm stuck in a horrible rut of misery and fear. I want to start a new life and be free from anxiety and depression, but I don't see how.
I can't eat, I constantly want to just curl up in a ball and cry because I just wish it would go away. I'm afraid. I'm afraid it won't ever go away and I'll never have the life I want. I'm 23 and I just feel like I'm getting older and older and I'm never gonna have a stable relationship or a job I can stand or care about. I can't form friendships or relationships. It's ruining my life. I go to work and just feel irritable and anxious since I hate it so much. I just want to be happy but I just want to cry all the time.
Can anyone tell me how I can ever get out of this mess, or indeed IF I can?