mlondon
29-09-12, 05:19
Hi
I have had anxiety on and on for five years now. A year ago I stopped taking Lexapro and whilst had anxiety attacks occassionally I managed ok.
However recently things have got on top of me, I have been looking for work for almost a year as the previous job I was in was only on a short term contract basis ( I think this greatly added to my anxiety as I only knew I had work for 2 months at a time and each time the work was overseas). After applying for about 200 jobs I finally got what you could say is a dream job in Fiji.
However my anxiety has come back massively. I used to work with people with Schizophrenia when my anxiety first started, it was a horrible job and of course I was terrified I was developing the condition too. At that time when I first started taking Lexapro I had some terrible nightmares and scarey images.
So now my anxiety has developed into a fear of going mad and I check to see if I am 'going mad'. I imagine what it would be like, I imagine scary images and then push them out of my mind to show myself I can control them. Though I am always on edge in case one day I cant control them, particularly if I have a panic attack, so I dont want to go to far away from my 'comfort zones'. My doctor has put me back on Lexapro which is a relief and I have been taking it for one week now, i know for me it makes me feel worse at the beginning. I am hoping these feelings and thoughts subside before I go to Fiji in a weeks time and am terrified they won't. I am terrified these scarey images and thoughts will take over my mind.
I feel I need extra support at this time from people who understand and so it would be great to hear from anyone who has a similar problem or anyone that understands.
Many thanks
M
I have had anxiety on and on for five years now. A year ago I stopped taking Lexapro and whilst had anxiety attacks occassionally I managed ok.
However recently things have got on top of me, I have been looking for work for almost a year as the previous job I was in was only on a short term contract basis ( I think this greatly added to my anxiety as I only knew I had work for 2 months at a time and each time the work was overseas). After applying for about 200 jobs I finally got what you could say is a dream job in Fiji.
However my anxiety has come back massively. I used to work with people with Schizophrenia when my anxiety first started, it was a horrible job and of course I was terrified I was developing the condition too. At that time when I first started taking Lexapro I had some terrible nightmares and scarey images.
So now my anxiety has developed into a fear of going mad and I check to see if I am 'going mad'. I imagine what it would be like, I imagine scary images and then push them out of my mind to show myself I can control them. Though I am always on edge in case one day I cant control them, particularly if I have a panic attack, so I dont want to go to far away from my 'comfort zones'. My doctor has put me back on Lexapro which is a relief and I have been taking it for one week now, i know for me it makes me feel worse at the beginning. I am hoping these feelings and thoughts subside before I go to Fiji in a weeks time and am terrified they won't. I am terrified these scarey images and thoughts will take over my mind.
I feel I need extra support at this time from people who understand and so it would be great to hear from anyone who has a similar problem or anyone that understands.
Many thanks
M