lora1988
30-09-12, 02:14
Im back on this site after 3 years, in that 3 years i have been doing great, yes ive had constant anxiety and emetphobia but i have been coping and controlling it, ive had a little boy in this time, got my own house, and been promoted to manager at work, then boom, one day (3 weeks ago) i was brushing my teeth when my heart started pounding beyond controll to the point i called an ambulance, they monitored me told me it was a panic attack but did say i could go to the doctor for blood work and an ECG, by the time i got the appointment i was back to my normal self the symptoms had gone so i cancelled the appointment (im always so busy with work, house, toddler etc) anyway all was good untill the start of this week when i started with the palpitations again, on and off for 3 days , then on thursday night my leg started itching at work, like a painful itch, i scratched it a few times nothing too hard, it continued to hurt, 4 hours later i got home had a bath, felt it hurt so i looked and what i saw sent me into MASSIVE panic, i have a cluster of HUGE bruises on the back of my leg (behind knee) red , black, purple, its huge, longer more than wider, i freaked and called the NHS, they asked me if id banged it etc which i havnt, so they told me to go get a blood test which i still havnt done, 1. because im too busy 2.because im scared of the results, im convinced after reading about the causes of bruising that its leukemia, a worry ive NEVER had in my life. My joints ache, like the ones in my arms, and my le where brusied aches, i have an absess on my tooth thats due to be pulled next month, i only had thrush 2 weeks ago, this morning ive woken up with a dry cough and runny nose and im always getting pains around my ribs and kidneys, i have palpiations, shortness of breath, practically every symptom of leukemia going apart from nose bleeds and rarely get headaches, ive never been so convinced in my life that i have an illness, ive also had pressure in my upper teeth constantly for 2 months, i have constant allergies so im thinking its sinus related, ive just let myself and these symptoms over load me and cause one big issue, that i now think is a disease im so worried ill leave my boy without a mum, i am booking in for a blood test on wednesday, in the mean time i cant cope im constantly checking to see if more bruises appear or if the current one spreads, PLEASE help me x