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[LJB]

Hi htere

My name is Lisa, im a 36 year old single mum of 3, and ive suffered with anxiety, panic and depression for about 10 years now. At the moment i am controlling the panic attacks myself and they aren't as bad as they used to be. But im living with this constant fear that im going to die very soon and that there must be something wrong with me. Visits to the doctor over the years have not been very productive as she mainly tells me to "pull myself together" but in a rather patronising way. So i dont go anymore and i cant change doctors as i doubt anyone else will take me on with these problems i have. I also have derealisation and have had this for a couple of months. I am at a point in my life now where i am totally fed up and dont really know what else i can do. I feel that some days i cannot be bothered as i am sick of the "detached" feeling from reality i have so i tend not to go out anywhere and have become rather isolated. I have a very short temper at the moment and everyone and everything gets on my nerves.
I found the forums by accident and i hope i can start to get some advice and talk to others who may be feeling like i do and maybe try to get back on track with my life.

Thanks for listening

Lisa x

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Lisa,

Believe me you are not alone. Welcome to the forum and you will receive alot of information here. You will also make alot of friends too. Try and visit the chat room where you can talk things out. Again, welcome.

Bel

"Our thoughts are our reality"

[ceecee]

hi lisa welcome to the site!i know its not easy but we are all here to help each other through this horrible anxiety!!!take care rachelxx

[LJB]

Thanks for the welcome. I've read some of the posts on here and its comforting to know im not the only one who feels like this. Im usually not too bad and deal with it quite well but this feeling of "not being here" and feeling like its not me doing stuff is the worst. Thanks for your replies though. :D

[trac67]

Hi Lisa,

Welcome to the forum, you will get a lot of good advice here and make some new friends.

I am in a similar position to you too, single parent of 3 and suffered for 9 years now,, when I first joined NMP it was a godsend, and hopefully you will find the same.

Take care

Trac xx

'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'

[polly daydream]

Hi Lisa and welcome to the forum.

Best wishes,

Polly

[LJB]

It feels such a relief to be able to open up about whats REALLY going on in my head than trying to hide it and pretend everything is ok. Some of the posts ive read on here are so open and honest and its brilliant that folk can come here and talk through theur problems. Im usually an outgoing person. Im at university studying for a degree (im on holiday at the moment), and i think that because i am on holidays right now and my brain isnt as active, then maybe thats why the derealisation has set in, and my anxiety has got worse. I have nothing to keep me occupied really other than my kids. I own a couple of motorbikes and i feel great when im out there on the bike, with nothing to bother me, and just wish i had that feeling all the time. As its summer holidays i havent been able to get out much on the bike because i have the kids, so i guess im kind of fed up about that too as i feel im missing out on my own little bit of "therapy". Theres a lot of stuff id like to get off my chest so to speak and im sure that the more i visit the site the more ill feel able to open up, and for that im so grateful.

Thanks to you all xx

[scoobygirl2005]

Hi.

Welcome to the forum.

Scooby2005
x x

[nomorepanic]

Hi Lisa

Welcome aboard and hope we can be of some help to you.

Have a good read round the website as well as this forum.

Nicola

[giddy]

Welcome to the forum Lisa
love Helen

[clickaway]

Hi Lisa,

I would not let your GP get away with her patronising attitude. It is true that GP's are not trained to deal with anxiety, but she should be referring you on to a specialist from the community mental health team. Its all part of the NHS and what you are entitled to.

Like you have your motorbikes to escape with, I have my camera andthe computer. Its often hard getrting to grips with reality...

Glad you found us and take care,



Ray


http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers