manders
07-08-06, 01:49
This is going to sound really strange but I'm not sure if what I feel most of the time is an anxiety disorder and panic attacks.
I have always been quite an anxious person, but it's definitely became worse over the past couple of years (since my depression was diagnosed). I constantly feel as if everything is going to go wrong with my life, even during good periods I am waiting for it all to come tumbling down again as it always does. I sweat constantly, especially my hands, I get a lot of tingling in my hands, my left one in particular, I often have to take a sharp intake of breath as I feel I am not getting enough air, and sometimes get a sharp pain in my chest. I am extremely irritable, have great difficult getting to sleep and then have very disturbed sleep as I waken up worrying about something. I have trouble relaxing properly and am constantly fidgeting, pumping my legs up and down.
Sometimes when I am out it's as if everyone is crowding in on me and I feel I can't cope with it and just want to get back home again where I will feel 'safe'. The worst I have been with that was last week, I was meeting my ex in town and I was fine while in the house, but as soon as I started driving I felt like I was being crowded by other vehicles and I felt really angry for some reason (the air was blue in my car that day lol) and then when actually walking in town I just felt as if I couldn't do it that day! It felt to me that everyone was coming at me, even people who were walking in front of me in the same direction that I was going. I think that if I hadn't had my ex with me, I would have gone straight back home again. The noise of everyone else also seemed to be amplified. On that particular day, I was constantly snapping at my ex and my children and I was the same with them today!
I have to go out most days to take my 2 youngest children to school or there are times I wouldn't leave the house. When my children were away with their dad last summer for 3 weeks, I only left the house to go to the shop at the bottom of my road and came straight back home again where I stayed for the rest of the day because I felt I couldn't cope with actually having to be with people and speak to them!
I have put all this down to my depression in the past but it is becoming increasingly worse all the time.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
Mandy
I have always been quite an anxious person, but it's definitely became worse over the past couple of years (since my depression was diagnosed). I constantly feel as if everything is going to go wrong with my life, even during good periods I am waiting for it all to come tumbling down again as it always does. I sweat constantly, especially my hands, I get a lot of tingling in my hands, my left one in particular, I often have to take a sharp intake of breath as I feel I am not getting enough air, and sometimes get a sharp pain in my chest. I am extremely irritable, have great difficult getting to sleep and then have very disturbed sleep as I waken up worrying about something. I have trouble relaxing properly and am constantly fidgeting, pumping my legs up and down.
Sometimes when I am out it's as if everyone is crowding in on me and I feel I can't cope with it and just want to get back home again where I will feel 'safe'. The worst I have been with that was last week, I was meeting my ex in town and I was fine while in the house, but as soon as I started driving I felt like I was being crowded by other vehicles and I felt really angry for some reason (the air was blue in my car that day lol) and then when actually walking in town I just felt as if I couldn't do it that day! It felt to me that everyone was coming at me, even people who were walking in front of me in the same direction that I was going. I think that if I hadn't had my ex with me, I would have gone straight back home again. The noise of everyone else also seemed to be amplified. On that particular day, I was constantly snapping at my ex and my children and I was the same with them today!
I have to go out most days to take my 2 youngest children to school or there are times I wouldn't leave the house. When my children were away with their dad last summer for 3 weeks, I only left the house to go to the shop at the bottom of my road and came straight back home again where I stayed for the rest of the day because I felt I couldn't cope with actually having to be with people and speak to them!
I have put all this down to my depression in the past but it is becoming increasingly worse all the time.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
Mandy