Tidgy_pud
09-10-12, 21:43
My first post....how scary...!!!!
Have been and avid reader on this forum over the last few weeks and decided to be brave and register...
Ok basic background: suffered severe post natal depression ...(22yrs ago)....Was prescribed Dothiepin which did a marvellous job....don't think id ever felt so good so was probs suffering before this without realising it...
Without boring you all stupid with detail.....I had a breakdown when my son was 4.....my dothiepin dose was upped to 150mgs and although they worked ish I've never really recovered..At one point I didn't leave the house for 4 years...I just couldn't .... :( ......After this I just kindof plodded on but could only leave the house with my then husband....I still can't leave the house on my own.....
Have had a huge set back and now back to square one....I'm a wreck....
Was prescribed mirtazapine which made me worse.....couldn't sleep at all and the panic and anxiety were worse than I'd ever had.....have now been prescribed Lustral and I'm too scared to take it......
Help....will this one work or am I going to be the same as with the last one..
Ps.....Am finally getting help for the first time in 18 yrs but only because of my out of control drinking..( my way of coping)....when I saw the Guy from the Mental Health team for addictions....he couldn't believe that I hadn't received any real help for all those years.....He made me feel that I could conquer the world if I really wanted to...I felt so much better and confident but now I'm back to square one.....
My temper is out of control...I'm always in tears.....panic is my constant partner ...I'm scared.....
Sorry for the rant and hope its makes sense.....I really do feel like I'm living on the edge right now....:weep:
Xxxx
Have been and avid reader on this forum over the last few weeks and decided to be brave and register...
Ok basic background: suffered severe post natal depression ...(22yrs ago)....Was prescribed Dothiepin which did a marvellous job....don't think id ever felt so good so was probs suffering before this without realising it...
Without boring you all stupid with detail.....I had a breakdown when my son was 4.....my dothiepin dose was upped to 150mgs and although they worked ish I've never really recovered..At one point I didn't leave the house for 4 years...I just couldn't .... :( ......After this I just kindof plodded on but could only leave the house with my then husband....I still can't leave the house on my own.....
Have had a huge set back and now back to square one....I'm a wreck....
Was prescribed mirtazapine which made me worse.....couldn't sleep at all and the panic and anxiety were worse than I'd ever had.....have now been prescribed Lustral and I'm too scared to take it......
Help....will this one work or am I going to be the same as with the last one..
Ps.....Am finally getting help for the first time in 18 yrs but only because of my out of control drinking..( my way of coping)....when I saw the Guy from the Mental Health team for addictions....he couldn't believe that I hadn't received any real help for all those years.....He made me feel that I could conquer the world if I really wanted to...I felt so much better and confident but now I'm back to square one.....
My temper is out of control...I'm always in tears.....panic is my constant partner ...I'm scared.....
Sorry for the rant and hope its makes sense.....I really do feel like I'm living on the edge right now....:weep:
Xxxx