MissHDynamite
15-10-12, 23:06
Hi Guys... Sorry but it's me again!
This might be quite a long one but I would just like your thoughts...
I have 3 people in my life.. my partner (we don't live together), my dad who lives 100 mile round trip away and has a partner (my mum passed away 7 years ago) and my daughter who is 20, in her final year at Uni and has been with her boyfriend for over 3 years.
The problem is my dad and daughter don't like my partner although we have been together for over 12 years. I agree he did some horrible things years ago but hasn't for many years now.
So for the last 6 months my panic attacks have been horrendous both in the house, out the house and more so when I am on my own... this is where the problem lies.
For the 6 months my partner has pratically lived with me and taken care of me but when we asked for him to have a break for a couple of nights here and there, it never came. Two weeks ago he walked out as (and I understand) the pressure got too much for him. We haven't split he just desperate;y needed a couple of days break.
My daughter rang my dad to help and he came over for a few days... the problem I have now is that my dad and daughter say if he (partner) comes back they won't help anymore and that they're done! So for now (2 weeks) I have spoken to my partner but asked him to stay away for a while.
But today, I am feeling more down than ever as my dad and daughter have now suggested (after ignoring pleas for months, for my partner to have a little break now and again) that I go into some respite at the weekends so they can both do their own thing and they need a break!.. they won't have it at all that my partner comes instead.
I am at the point of getting in my car and dissapearing.. I am so annoyed that I am 47 and is this situation because of this complete phobia which has come out of nowhere and being "told" what I can do and what I can't.
I am feeling really angry and hurt about all this (not least about not seeing my partner for the 2 weeks). I am already hurting enough with not having a life and having this struggle of panic to get through each day.
Am I not thinking sensible about this or am I just being selfish?
So sorry for the long post.. Big Thanks for any thoughts xx
---------- Post added at 23:06 ---------- Previous post was at 20:15 ----------
Crikey!.. lots of people have viewed this post but no one has given me their thoughts... My way of thinking is that possibly my family would agree to disagree and help each other out aswell as help me at least get on my feet instead of being their way or no way... maybe I am wrong :doh:
This might be quite a long one but I would just like your thoughts...
I have 3 people in my life.. my partner (we don't live together), my dad who lives 100 mile round trip away and has a partner (my mum passed away 7 years ago) and my daughter who is 20, in her final year at Uni and has been with her boyfriend for over 3 years.
The problem is my dad and daughter don't like my partner although we have been together for over 12 years. I agree he did some horrible things years ago but hasn't for many years now.
So for the last 6 months my panic attacks have been horrendous both in the house, out the house and more so when I am on my own... this is where the problem lies.
For the 6 months my partner has pratically lived with me and taken care of me but when we asked for him to have a break for a couple of nights here and there, it never came. Two weeks ago he walked out as (and I understand) the pressure got too much for him. We haven't split he just desperate;y needed a couple of days break.
My daughter rang my dad to help and he came over for a few days... the problem I have now is that my dad and daughter say if he (partner) comes back they won't help anymore and that they're done! So for now (2 weeks) I have spoken to my partner but asked him to stay away for a while.
But today, I am feeling more down than ever as my dad and daughter have now suggested (after ignoring pleas for months, for my partner to have a little break now and again) that I go into some respite at the weekends so they can both do their own thing and they need a break!.. they won't have it at all that my partner comes instead.
I am at the point of getting in my car and dissapearing.. I am so annoyed that I am 47 and is this situation because of this complete phobia which has come out of nowhere and being "told" what I can do and what I can't.
I am feeling really angry and hurt about all this (not least about not seeing my partner for the 2 weeks). I am already hurting enough with not having a life and having this struggle of panic to get through each day.
Am I not thinking sensible about this or am I just being selfish?
So sorry for the long post.. Big Thanks for any thoughts xx
---------- Post added at 23:06 ---------- Previous post was at 20:15 ----------
Crikey!.. lots of people have viewed this post but no one has given me their thoughts... My way of thinking is that possibly my family would agree to disagree and help each other out aswell as help me at least get on my feet instead of being their way or no way... maybe I am wrong :doh: