Siany
18-10-12, 02:06
Hi, my name's Sian, pronounced 'sharn' seeing as so many people seem to get it mixed up lol.
I'm not sure if I even have anxiety and if I should even be here although I feel like I do.
Ever since I was little it started off as anxiety about there being something wrong with me. Something internal that I couldn't see, like if a headache extended for 'longer than I thought was normal' I believed I had a brain tumour. It became a bit of a joke in my family, and everyone called me a hypochondriac. Which is probably true, but this has always been the case.
Since I have got older, my feelings of anxiety have seemed to get worse. The most common being irrational thoughts, which, I know are irrational but I can't stop them from happening. I have a very obsessive need to know my plans before I do them, so I am in control of a situation.
I feel anxious when I feel like I can't control a situation, be it my life, health, family, friends or boyfriend. More recently it has started to become apparent with travel too as I've been using trains and underground in London more frequently.
I also have irrational daydreams, such as if I'm walking down the stairs I'll have a vision of me falling and breaking my neck and dying, so it takes me far longer to get down the stairs.
I've only ever had two panic attacks and that was when I was 16. But I often feel an increase in heart rate or dizziness when I feel anxious.
I also suffer from Coulrophobia, the fear of clowns. Which has become increasingly worse as I've aged. I've never liked that, but now I cannot even bare to look at them without gagging or my heart race increasing. The worst peak was when I was in school and on red nose day, there was one coming near me, I had a panic attack and ended up crying in front of the whole school...
I'm not sure if I'm a sufferer of anxiety or not really, as I don't know a lot about it. I don't know if it comes in different forms etc. But I guess that's why I'm on here, to shed some light onto the situation and see if anyone knows of any ways of coping because sometimes my thoughts become unbearable.
But it's nice to introduce myself, and, I hope you've all had a lovely day.
Sian x
I'm not sure if I even have anxiety and if I should even be here although I feel like I do.
Ever since I was little it started off as anxiety about there being something wrong with me. Something internal that I couldn't see, like if a headache extended for 'longer than I thought was normal' I believed I had a brain tumour. It became a bit of a joke in my family, and everyone called me a hypochondriac. Which is probably true, but this has always been the case.
Since I have got older, my feelings of anxiety have seemed to get worse. The most common being irrational thoughts, which, I know are irrational but I can't stop them from happening. I have a very obsessive need to know my plans before I do them, so I am in control of a situation.
I feel anxious when I feel like I can't control a situation, be it my life, health, family, friends or boyfriend. More recently it has started to become apparent with travel too as I've been using trains and underground in London more frequently.
I also have irrational daydreams, such as if I'm walking down the stairs I'll have a vision of me falling and breaking my neck and dying, so it takes me far longer to get down the stairs.
I've only ever had two panic attacks and that was when I was 16. But I often feel an increase in heart rate or dizziness when I feel anxious.
I also suffer from Coulrophobia, the fear of clowns. Which has become increasingly worse as I've aged. I've never liked that, but now I cannot even bare to look at them without gagging or my heart race increasing. The worst peak was when I was in school and on red nose day, there was one coming near me, I had a panic attack and ended up crying in front of the whole school...
I'm not sure if I'm a sufferer of anxiety or not really, as I don't know a lot about it. I don't know if it comes in different forms etc. But I guess that's why I'm on here, to shed some light onto the situation and see if anyone knows of any ways of coping because sometimes my thoughts become unbearable.
But it's nice to introduce myself, and, I hope you've all had a lovely day.
Sian x