Laura123
18-10-12, 22:54
Ok, so here I go. I am 36, married with 2 beautiful kids. My anxiety started when I was very young, about 4or 5. My parents divorced when I was 3 and I vividly. Remember panicking for my mum all the time. As I grew up my stepfather made his feelings very clear, he hated kids, he hated me, I got in the way. When I was 17 my mum finally left him for another man, sadly she left me too, this was my first real introduction to real proper panic attacks. I am sad to say I was desperately unhappy and dabbled quite a bit with recreational drugs, my late teens and early 20's are quite honestly a blur of trying to survive. My mum suffered a breakdown when I was 22, I picked up the pieces and mum came back into my life. Anxiety still plagued me. I married and had my son and was finally so happy. 2 years later I had my daughter and we were unlucky to come out if hospital with mrsa this is where my health anxiety started. Just recently I would say the past year, I have become agrophobic, and my life has been turned upside down with the most dreadful anxiety stopping everything in its tracks. I am now taking sertraline which is helping so far. I am such a laid back easy going person who on the whole is actually very bubbly and happy, always cracking jokes. I will beat this, I want to be the best mum I can be, I want my kids to never see me go through the stuff I watched mum go through, it damages a child. This forum has helped me so much, I hope some of my experiences can offer some help to sine of you just as yours have helped me. So there you go, that's me :) xx