3 months iv felt like this....cant go on

[stressedmamof3]

im back again writing yet another post about my "mysterious" head problems which started in july ... feelings of depersonalisation,weird feeling in left head, pain in left ear, shooting pains in left head and forhead.
it did go away for a week in august then it went away for 11 days last week, now it is back. it doesnt get any worse and iv never had a headache with it.
i was on 10mg cit for 4 weeks then doc put me on 20mg which i took for 2 weeks but i piled half a stone on in 2weeks so i stopped them.
back to docs next week.
everything just seems to be left sided ... this week iv also started experiencing sharp shooting pains in my left chest every couple of hours and today im getting awful pains down my left forearm and hand... i also have fluid in my left ear (which the docs says i dont but i can hear and feel it) im literally fed up , it is really affecting my life.
last week i was great.... but now its back again.... i think its some kind of slow growing illness :weep: im so scared. i also had a dream last night that i fainted... now when i googled it it came up that u are gonna received some unexpected news about ur health :wacko: SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME

[Shepherd]

Anxiety can really mess with ones mind, making us think we have every deadly disease under the sun, but ignore the more common and benign causes, such as stress.

Here's a long list of things one may feel with anxiety, maybe this will ease your mind some.


ANXIETY SYMPTOMS LIST :

Body

Blanching (looking pale, loss of color in the face or skin)
Blushing, flushed face, flushed skin, blushing, red face or skin
Body temperature increase or decrease
Burning Sensations throughout the body
Choking
Chronic Fatigue
Clumsiness, feeling clumsy
Disorientation
Dizziness
Dizzy
Electric shock feeling
Excess of energy, you feel you can’t relax
Falling sensation, feel like your are falling even though you aren't
Feel like you are going to pass out or faint
Feeling cold or chilled
Flu like symptoms, general malaise
Flushed face, red face, flushed skin
Heart palpitations, racing heart
Hyperactivity, excess energy, nervous energy
Increased or decreased sex drive
Infection - increased infections, persistent infection
Muscle twitching
Nausea
Nausea vomiting
Neck, back, shoulder pain, tightness/stiffness
Night sweats, waking up in a sweat, profusely sweating at night
No energy, feeling lethargic, tired
Numbness
Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
Numbness and tingling, and other skin sensations on hands, feet, face, head, or any other places on the body
Persistent muscle tension, stiffness
Sexual Dysfunction, sexual uninterest
Skipped heart beats
Sore or tight scalp or back of the neck
Startle easily
Sweating, uncontrollable profuse sweating
The floor feels like it is moving either down or up for no reason
Trembling or shaking
Urgency to urinate, frequent urination, sudden urge to go to the washroom (similar to urinary tract or prostrate infection symptoms)
Warm spells
Weak - feel weak, weakness, low energy, light, soft, like you may faint
Weak legs, arms, or muscles
Weight loss, weight gain

Chest

Chest pain or discomfort
Concern about the heart
Feel like you have to force yourself to breath
Find it hard to breath, feeling smothered, shortness of breath
Frequent yawning to try and catch your breath
Heart Palpitations – beating hard or too fast, rapid heartbeat
Heart - Irregular heart rhythms, flutters or ‘skipped’ beats, tickle in the chest that makes you cough
Emotions (see mood)

Fears

A heightened fear of what people think of you
Afraid of being trapped in a place with no exits
Constant feeling of being overwhelmed.
Fear of being in public
Fear of dying
Fear of losing control
Fear of impending doom
Fear of making mistakes or making a fool of yourself to others
Fear of passing out
Fear that you are losing your mind
Fears about irrational things, objects, circumstances, or situations
Fears of going crazy, of dying, of impending doom, of normal things, unusual feelings and emotions, unusually frightening thoughts or feelings
Heightened self awareness, or self-consciousness
Need to find nearest washrooms before you can feel comfortable
Need to sit near exits

Head

Burning, itchy, tight scalp
Dizziness
Dizzy
Dizziness or light-headedness
Frequent headaches, migraine headaches
Feeling like there is a tight band around your head, pressure, tightness
Head, neck or shoulder pain, tightness/stiffness
Giddiness
Numbness
Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
Shooting pains in the face
Shooting pains in the scalp or head
When you close your eyes you feel like are beginning to, or will, float upwards
Sore jaw that feels like a tooth ache
TMJ (Temporo-Mandibular Joint) - clenching of the jaw or grinding of the teeth

Hearing

Frequent or intermittent reduced hearing or deafness in one or both ears
Low rumbling sounds
Ringing in the ears, noises in the ears, noises in the head

Mind

Afraid of everything
Altered state of reality, consciousness, or universe feeling
Deja Vu, a feeling like you've done or experienced something before
Depersonalization
Derealization
Desensitization
Difficulty thinking, speaking, forming thoughts, following conversations
Fear of going crazy
Fear of losing control
Fear of impending doom
Feelings of unreality
Frequent feeling of being overwhelmed, or that there is just too much to handle or do
Having difficulty concentrating
Nightmares, bad dreams
Obsession about sensations or getting better
Repetitive thinking or incessant ‘mind chatter’
Trapped in your mind feeling
Underlying anxiety, apprehension, or fear
You often feel you are carrying the world on your shoulders

Mood / Emotions

Always feeling angry and lack of patience
Depression
Dramatic mood swings (emotional flipping)
Emotionally blunted, flat, or numb
Emotional "flipping" (dramatic mood swings)
Emotions feel wrong
Everything is scary, frightening
Feeling down in the dumps
Feeling like things are unreal or dreamlike
Frequently being on edge or 'grouchy'
Frequently feel like crying for no apparent reason
Have no feelings about things you used to
Not feeling like yourself, detached from loved ones, emotionally numb
Underlying anxiety, apprehension, or fear
You feel like you are under pressure all the time

Mouth/Stomach

A ‘tinny’, ‘metallic’ or ‘ammonia’, or unusual smell or taste
Aerophagia (swallowing too much air, stomach distention, belching)
Choking
Constant craving for sugar or sweets
Constipation
Diarrhea
Difficulty swallowing
Difficulty talking, pronouncing certain letters or sounds, mouth feels like it isn't moving right, slurred speech
Dry mouth
Feeling like you can’t swallow properly or that something will get caught in your throat
Feeling like your tongue is swollen
Frequent upset stomach, bloating, gaseous
IBS
Lack of appetite or taste
Lump in the throat, tight throat, something stuck in your throat
Mouth muscles twitching/jumping
Nausea
Nausea vomiting
Nausea or abdominal stress
Numbness
Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
The thought of eating makes you nauseous
Tight throat, lump in throat
Tongue symptoms - Tingly, “stretched,” numb, frozen, itchy, “crawly,” burning, twitching, “jumpy,” aching, sore, or swollen tongue (when it isn’t).
Urgency to urinate, frequent urination, sudden urge to go to the washroom
Vomiting

Skin

Burning skin sensations, skin sensitivity
Numbness
Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
Skin problems, infections, rashes

Sleep

Difficulty falling or staying asleep
Frequent bad, bizarre, or crazy dreams
Hearing sounds in your head that jolt you awake
Insomnia, or waking up ill in the middle of the night
Jolting awake
Waking up in a panic attack
You feel worse in the mornings
Sight
Distorted, foggy, or blurred vision
Dry, watery or itchy eyes
Eye tricks, seeing things our of the corner of your eye that isn’t there, stars, flashes
Eyes sensitive to light
Spots in the vision
Flashing lights when eyes are closed
Your depth perception feels wrong
Touch
Burning skin sensations, skin sensitivity
Feeling cold or chilled
Numbness
Numbness tingling, numbness and tingling
Pain
Tingling, pins and needles feelings

Other symptoms are described as:
Being like a hypochondriac, muscle twinges, worry all the time, tingles, gagging, tightness in the chest, tongue twitches, shaky, breath lump, heart beat problems, head tingles, itchy tingling in arms and legs, and so many more.

In addition to these symptoms, you may also find yourself worrying compulsively about:
• Having a heart attack
• Having a serious undetected illness
• Dying prematurely
• Going insane or losing your mind
• Harming yourself or someone you love uncontrollably
• Being embarrassed or making a fool out or yourself
• Losing control
• Fainting in public
• Not breathing properly
• Choking or suffocating
• Being alone



These are some of the more common anxiety symptoms. This list isn't exhaustive.

Anxiety symptoms can range in number, intensity, and frequency, with each person experiencing their unique set of anxiety symptoms.

[Annie0904]

My right ear really affects me when I am anxious, seem feeling as you...but I only notice it when anxious and doctor said it is fine :hugs:

[STEPHYUNO]

It sounds like you are having a dreadful time, but have faith it will get better soon, doctors don't always know what's best, especially in the area of mental health, depression and anxiety etc, and unless they have taken SSRIs like citalopram, don't truly know how it effects each individual.

I would suggest insisting on having some kind of tests and scan done, even if just to put your mind at rest, if you dont feel comfortable talking t this doctor, perhaps seek advice from another, (you are entitled to)

Best wishes, Steph:)

[stressedmamof3]

wow thats an awful long list, i just cant seem to get my head aound the fact that anxiety can cause all of this :lac: i have 3 gorgeous children and really worry about how im affecting them....
im convinced im dying :weep:

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how long will the doc take to refer me for scans/test etc... iv been back to see her 4 times in 3month... and she just seems to think its one of those things :(

[Harley]

Yes, unfortunately anxiety can cause every one of those symptoms and can really mess with your mind. It can convince you of anything. I shouldnt worry about how many times you visit your GP, you have to keep on until you get the help you need. I had to be in my GPs surgery every day until he finally agreed to refer me. Looking back now it was obvious that he didnt have a clue about anxiety.
My advice would be not to keep stopping and starting you medication. You have to commit to sticking with a drug and giving a fair go before you know whether it is helping you or not. They are so many different drugs available if one doesnt work. From my own experience they work really well when combined with therapy.
I notice you mention the exact number of days you felt better. I can remember doing that so clearly. I used to keep a diary and add up how many good days and how many bad days I had had. Sadly, that is the pattern of the road to recovery. But eventually you will find you will have longer good spells.
Try not to worry and pay your thoughts too much attention. I promise you, you can overcome this. I was a complete wreck. I was convinced I was the one who could never overcome anxiety, but here I am leading a normal life again, just wish I hadnt given in to the anxiety and lost all those years. But there is no quick cure and it is a case of learning and retraining your brain.

[stressedmamof3]

:weep: cant help thinking im gonna die soon... even thinking of makin up some kind of memory box for the kids :blush: dont know what to do...where to turn to.
i really dont think its anxiety....