Cocomademoiselle
21-10-12, 17:02
Hi Im new to this site thought id say hi ! I usually google things and have read a good few posts on here that have been very helpful and have finally decided to join so I can post and help anybody that I can.
I am suffering with depression, I started with panic attacks and acute anxiety about 5 years ago, before that I used to have it on and off would only last a few days week max and would use diazepam for this but on the main occasion 5 years ago it seemed to last for weeks and weeks and would not go away. The doctors put me on Citalopram but this just made me feel 10 X worse, aggitated, sick, dizzy, heightened anxiety and a feeling of going mad. I stopped after a week as I was so frightened. I went back to the doctors and vowed never to take an antidepressant again and just rely on Diazepam. But I wasnt getting any better I hadnt slept for over a month, and was getting worse. In the end I thought I had nothing to loose and tried Cipralex (Escitalopram) and I was expecting to feel as bad as I did on the Citalopram but I didnt and I felt it worked within about 1-2 weeks I felt like I was getting better. I have tried in time to cut down and reduce but every time I get stressed or upset I am in a negative thinking cycle and I become feeling depressed and anxious again, never as bad as the first instance, but I always end up re-started my tablets because I feel life is too short to feel like that when I know these tablets work for me. 5 years on Im not sure what happened whether they stopped working for me but the past few weeks been feeling really low, ive given it time etc but its not gone. So back to the doctors and they have started me on 15mg Mirtazapine and to go back in 2 weeks time to increase or see how I am. xx
I am suffering with depression, I started with panic attacks and acute anxiety about 5 years ago, before that I used to have it on and off would only last a few days week max and would use diazepam for this but on the main occasion 5 years ago it seemed to last for weeks and weeks and would not go away. The doctors put me on Citalopram but this just made me feel 10 X worse, aggitated, sick, dizzy, heightened anxiety and a feeling of going mad. I stopped after a week as I was so frightened. I went back to the doctors and vowed never to take an antidepressant again and just rely on Diazepam. But I wasnt getting any better I hadnt slept for over a month, and was getting worse. In the end I thought I had nothing to loose and tried Cipralex (Escitalopram) and I was expecting to feel as bad as I did on the Citalopram but I didnt and I felt it worked within about 1-2 weeks I felt like I was getting better. I have tried in time to cut down and reduce but every time I get stressed or upset I am in a negative thinking cycle and I become feeling depressed and anxious again, never as bad as the first instance, but I always end up re-started my tablets because I feel life is too short to feel like that when I know these tablets work for me. 5 years on Im not sure what happened whether they stopped working for me but the past few weeks been feeling really low, ive given it time etc but its not gone. So back to the doctors and they have started me on 15mg Mirtazapine and to go back in 2 weeks time to increase or see how I am. xx