SOBAY310
09-08-06, 17:57
Hi Guys,
Well, I'm back after a few weeks. Normally I pop in and try to help others, but I'm going through something now and I can't quite put my finger on it. I'm just going to ramble real quick on what I'm feeling and maybe you can relate to it or give me some words on what you think is going on:
It just seems like I'm always worrying, but there isn't anything I'm really worried about. I have the feeling sometimes that things are moving so fast and I can't get off the ride. Like the world is moving fast and there is nothing I can do about it. Whenever somebody invites me to do something or when I'm planning a trip with my wife and daugther it's always anxiety first and then excitment second. I just don't get it, because I don't have panic attacks but the first thing that pops in my head when plans are being made is, "Will I be able to handle it?". Then there are times where I think that over time my little mental problem will develop into something very severe and I'll become really out of it, ya know? It's come to the point now too that I can't watch the news without becoming worried about the world coming to an end due to global warming or a nuclear war. I don't neccesarily believe those things will happen, it's just the thought lingers. It's kind of like I can't just throw away what I don't believe. Everything is sticking in my brain, good/bad, true/false. And then there are times where I just don't feel happy. I start to have a little anxiety thinking to myself, "Oh my gosh, what if I forget how to feel happy about something, what's the point of living?" I mean, it's not really suicidal thoughts, but just the fear of not being able to be happy. I sometimes wonder if I'm depressed and that's what is triggering all this stuff, but I don't know. I also get down on myself because although I have a belief in Christ and heaven, it's depressing to know that at one point it's all going to be over. Prayer has helped me though.
But, everyday when I wake up I just have this lingering feeling of worry, and I never quite feel myself. It's like my head is spinning but I don't get dizzy, ya know? No matter how hard I immerse myself into my work, school, or family, it is always on my mind. And there are times where it starts to get to me and it annoys me to know that it may be like this forever. If that's the case I think my mind will go kapoot in a few years (I'm 25 now). Like I said though, prayer and Claire Weekes book have gotten me through tough times in the past 4 months but I just want this constant unease to go away.
Maybe you can relate?
“If you think growing up is tough, then you're just not grown up enough.” - Steven Page, Barenaked Ladies
Well, I'm back after a few weeks. Normally I pop in and try to help others, but I'm going through something now and I can't quite put my finger on it. I'm just going to ramble real quick on what I'm feeling and maybe you can relate to it or give me some words on what you think is going on:
It just seems like I'm always worrying, but there isn't anything I'm really worried about. I have the feeling sometimes that things are moving so fast and I can't get off the ride. Like the world is moving fast and there is nothing I can do about it. Whenever somebody invites me to do something or when I'm planning a trip with my wife and daugther it's always anxiety first and then excitment second. I just don't get it, because I don't have panic attacks but the first thing that pops in my head when plans are being made is, "Will I be able to handle it?". Then there are times where I think that over time my little mental problem will develop into something very severe and I'll become really out of it, ya know? It's come to the point now too that I can't watch the news without becoming worried about the world coming to an end due to global warming or a nuclear war. I don't neccesarily believe those things will happen, it's just the thought lingers. It's kind of like I can't just throw away what I don't believe. Everything is sticking in my brain, good/bad, true/false. And then there are times where I just don't feel happy. I start to have a little anxiety thinking to myself, "Oh my gosh, what if I forget how to feel happy about something, what's the point of living?" I mean, it's not really suicidal thoughts, but just the fear of not being able to be happy. I sometimes wonder if I'm depressed and that's what is triggering all this stuff, but I don't know. I also get down on myself because although I have a belief in Christ and heaven, it's depressing to know that at one point it's all going to be over. Prayer has helped me though.
But, everyday when I wake up I just have this lingering feeling of worry, and I never quite feel myself. It's like my head is spinning but I don't get dizzy, ya know? No matter how hard I immerse myself into my work, school, or family, it is always on my mind. And there are times where it starts to get to me and it annoys me to know that it may be like this forever. If that's the case I think my mind will go kapoot in a few years (I'm 25 now). Like I said though, prayer and Claire Weekes book have gotten me through tough times in the past 4 months but I just want this constant unease to go away.
Maybe you can relate?
“If you think growing up is tough, then you're just not grown up enough.” - Steven Page, Barenaked Ladies