Godzilla
22-10-12, 18:20
I have had anxiety since a child, always very nervy, did not enjoy school as felt dizzy and would day dream a lot.
My first panic attack was when I was 25, I could not leave my bedroom for a few months, I was a real mess. A shrink came to my house and gave me a little cocktail of drugs to which made me feel a bit better. Time went on and I could travel again and lead a fairly normal life by the time I was 28. I was still nervous about going in to large shops but I could travel and work. When I was 31 I had a relapse, ended up staying at my Mum's for 4 weeks then slowly got better. 35 I had another one to where I could not leave my house for a few months. Well the past year has been good, still not working but I could travel about 30 miles from my home, do my shopping in Tesco's etc......3 weeks ago I had a panic attack. This then made me want to stay at home although I could still travel. Well the area I could travel has got shorter and shorter and now I am having trouble just driving down the road from my home, so about 400-500 yards.......I really cant believe it, this is now getting silly. I have read books on anxiety, had CBT and other therapies over the years.I just cant understand why? My daughter is now 14 and I cant even collect her from school or drop her home, infact my neighbour is taking her home and collecting her as I have told everyone I fell and have injured my leg so I cant drive. What can I do.....I have tried almost every medication too and am now on a high dose of Diazepam, Citalopram and Clonazepam.
My first panic attack was when I was 25, I could not leave my bedroom for a few months, I was a real mess. A shrink came to my house and gave me a little cocktail of drugs to which made me feel a bit better. Time went on and I could travel again and lead a fairly normal life by the time I was 28. I was still nervous about going in to large shops but I could travel and work. When I was 31 I had a relapse, ended up staying at my Mum's for 4 weeks then slowly got better. 35 I had another one to where I could not leave my house for a few months. Well the past year has been good, still not working but I could travel about 30 miles from my home, do my shopping in Tesco's etc......3 weeks ago I had a panic attack. This then made me want to stay at home although I could still travel. Well the area I could travel has got shorter and shorter and now I am having trouble just driving down the road from my home, so about 400-500 yards.......I really cant believe it, this is now getting silly. I have read books on anxiety, had CBT and other therapies over the years.I just cant understand why? My daughter is now 14 and I cant even collect her from school or drop her home, infact my neighbour is taking her home and collecting her as I have told everyone I fell and have injured my leg so I cant drive. What can I do.....I have tried almost every medication too and am now on a high dose of Diazepam, Citalopram and Clonazepam.