little scientist
23-10-12, 01:35
Hey everyone, I know it's late (1am!) but I felt I had to post, didn't know where else to turn but I thought it possibly a good idea to get it written down what just happened. Apologies for any detail that's a little too graphic.
I've just had (and still having I believe) an anxiety attack that's just resulted in me having to get out of bed and vomit. It was horrible. I had the tense feeling stomach, then the rapid heart and sweating and then throwing up.
I knew I had had a bit if a "meh" and depressed feeling day, but I took note of my cbt, and picked out positive things from the day at work and thought about them and how they were good to try and boost myself while I was feeling low to try and reverse the negative thoughts process, and turn it positive. I then as usual went to bed and did a relaxation cd as always and then nodded off, which turned out only to be for a short while :(
I so want to feel better, I hate feeling low like this, and I feel as though there is little reason for me to feel like this. I know i dont find work the easiest thing, but I am trying so hard to turn that into something positive in my life and tell myself that I am good at it. I feel helpless. I want to make the most of my CBT online course that I am doing with the help of my counsellor, does anyone have any suggestions of how to do this? I think my other half feels helpless in all this, but I am so glad I have him here just for that hug when I need it, and he keeps telling me I can overcome this, that "I can do it!".
I keep wondering whether the increase in citalopram that my GP suggested might be a good idea (I think it's been about 7 weeks) as this is the second bad night involving throwing up in a week, she suggested going up to 40mg but it scared me, the thought of being at the highest dose, and previously on cit I had done so well on 20mg and part of me feels like I should be doing well on that dose. Like I say, I just want to return to the me I was about 7 months ago before I came off cit and felt fantastic.
Sorry for the essay, I just needed to get that all down!
I've just had (and still having I believe) an anxiety attack that's just resulted in me having to get out of bed and vomit. It was horrible. I had the tense feeling stomach, then the rapid heart and sweating and then throwing up.
I knew I had had a bit if a "meh" and depressed feeling day, but I took note of my cbt, and picked out positive things from the day at work and thought about them and how they were good to try and boost myself while I was feeling low to try and reverse the negative thoughts process, and turn it positive. I then as usual went to bed and did a relaxation cd as always and then nodded off, which turned out only to be for a short while :(
I so want to feel better, I hate feeling low like this, and I feel as though there is little reason for me to feel like this. I know i dont find work the easiest thing, but I am trying so hard to turn that into something positive in my life and tell myself that I am good at it. I feel helpless. I want to make the most of my CBT online course that I am doing with the help of my counsellor, does anyone have any suggestions of how to do this? I think my other half feels helpless in all this, but I am so glad I have him here just for that hug when I need it, and he keeps telling me I can overcome this, that "I can do it!".
I keep wondering whether the increase in citalopram that my GP suggested might be a good idea (I think it's been about 7 weeks) as this is the second bad night involving throwing up in a week, she suggested going up to 40mg but it scared me, the thought of being at the highest dose, and previously on cit I had done so well on 20mg and part of me feels like I should be doing well on that dose. Like I say, I just want to return to the me I was about 7 months ago before I came off cit and felt fantastic.
Sorry for the essay, I just needed to get that all down!