Bongo182
23-10-12, 12:53
hello
I am a 26 year old man and have been suffering with anxiety and panick attacks for about 4 and half years. When i first had them i was sooo scared and sufferd with de-realization aswell. It was horrible, woke up everyday and felt so spacey....finally got to the point where i couldnt leave the house. After about 3 months of this i fought against it and got a job and slowly but surely it got better over the next year.
For the last 2 and a half years i have been generally fine, still having some feelings but being able to control them. Until recently me and my girlfriend went on a family trip to ireland . I am not the best with heights and we went to the top of the guiness tower and i had a panic attack, Ever since then i have just been really anxious again. Me and my partner have just moved into our new house and i have just got a new job (i started yesterday) .
The problem is that yesterday was my first day and i constantly just felt dizzy and like i was going to pass out and that i just wanted to run away so i could die without the embarassment of being around the people that dont know me. It makes me feel sick, dizzy, crazy, thoughts that i am dieing, and gives me such lack of concentration. And when i am going through these feelings, i convince myself that this cant be anxiety because its soo bad. I feel like i am under so much pressure at the moment. Just got a new house and i need to work so we can have a nice life together, but i am getting so scared that its going to get to a point where it stops me from being able to do anything!
What i would like from anyone is maybe some positive storys about people who feel the same but manage to get through it and stay in a job and are etting better or anything along them lines. Everyday i make sure i go out the house for a period of time if i am working or not.....so i dont let the house become my 'prison'. Also the doctors have tried medication but i never really take it as i have heard with the anti-anxiety meds it makes you worse for first 3 weeks usually. One thing that does help is alcohol.......i find myself coming home from work and drinking straiht away or when i get worked up going straight to pub or having a can of laer just to calm me down. Anything that any of you reccomend and any positive storys would be reat right now...... as i get so scared i am going to let everyone down due to my mind playing tricks on me :(
Thanks in advance
Bongo :)
I am a 26 year old man and have been suffering with anxiety and panick attacks for about 4 and half years. When i first had them i was sooo scared and sufferd with de-realization aswell. It was horrible, woke up everyday and felt so spacey....finally got to the point where i couldnt leave the house. After about 3 months of this i fought against it and got a job and slowly but surely it got better over the next year.
For the last 2 and a half years i have been generally fine, still having some feelings but being able to control them. Until recently me and my girlfriend went on a family trip to ireland . I am not the best with heights and we went to the top of the guiness tower and i had a panic attack, Ever since then i have just been really anxious again. Me and my partner have just moved into our new house and i have just got a new job (i started yesterday) .
The problem is that yesterday was my first day and i constantly just felt dizzy and like i was going to pass out and that i just wanted to run away so i could die without the embarassment of being around the people that dont know me. It makes me feel sick, dizzy, crazy, thoughts that i am dieing, and gives me such lack of concentration. And when i am going through these feelings, i convince myself that this cant be anxiety because its soo bad. I feel like i am under so much pressure at the moment. Just got a new house and i need to work so we can have a nice life together, but i am getting so scared that its going to get to a point where it stops me from being able to do anything!
What i would like from anyone is maybe some positive storys about people who feel the same but manage to get through it and stay in a job and are etting better or anything along them lines. Everyday i make sure i go out the house for a period of time if i am working or not.....so i dont let the house become my 'prison'. Also the doctors have tried medication but i never really take it as i have heard with the anti-anxiety meds it makes you worse for first 3 weeks usually. One thing that does help is alcohol.......i find myself coming home from work and drinking straiht away or when i get worked up going straight to pub or having a can of laer just to calm me down. Anything that any of you reccomend and any positive storys would be reat right now...... as i get so scared i am going to let everyone down due to my mind playing tricks on me :(
Thanks in advance
Bongo :)