worriedcrazy
23-10-12, 23:20
For the past couple of months I have managed to convince myself that I have brain damage. I worried this damage was caused by things like heat stroke, water poisoning, lead poisoning, hypocapnia - generally things that most people don't think about. Recently I have been worried that because of the brain damage I believe I have, I have become a pedophile (I heard that reduced white matter in the brain is a trend in pedophiles). The thought that I may be one makes me feel sick. I have been worrying that I may be one because I noticed things about my 8 year old brother (that I haven't had the opportunity to spend much time with until recently) that make me think I am; I did a double take when i saw him wearing a tank top (but i didn't have sexual urges, I just thought he looked skinny and delicate) and thought that he's quite a good looking boy (well better looking than I was at that age anyway). I have never had any sexual thoughts relating to kids and have been in relationships with girls my age or older since I was 17. I need to know if brain damage that i may have acquired in the past few months has made me a creep. The other things worth noting are that recently I have been asked to tutor kids at a school (which i am no longer going to do because the thought of going to a school now makes me sick) and therefore have been thinking about getting a certificate stating that I have no history of sexual violence towards kids and that in my country a celebrity has just been exposed as a pedophile.
Also I read on this website a couple of weeks ago that someone was worried about being a pedophile which i thought was crazy at the time (I am not sure if this is part of the reason I am worrying about this )
Also I read on this website a couple of weeks ago that someone was worried about being a pedophile which i thought was crazy at the time (I am not sure if this is part of the reason I am worrying about this )