Trapped
25-10-12, 23:40
Hi,
I hadn't recovered completely after being here last, and now I am really bad again.
Depression and anxiety are my problems. Brought on by coping with my son who has mental health problems, the lack of support from the services assigned to him, and my terrible non-existent family. As you can probably tell I feel a lot of repressed anger which I know is causing some of the problems. My parents were hopeless, just disappeared, leaving my Gran to raise me. She was wonderful, if not for her I would not have survived.
Due to being a carer for my son I have had to hide my own problems, I have a fear of getting the help which I so desperately need. He was diagnosed ADHD at 5 and has been with the mental health system since, he was query bipolar and now is diagnosed ADHD/mood disorder.
I have spent my life helping others and there is nobody for me, I have been too soft and let my parents get away with ignoring me and living their own lives. They ignored my son too.
I am just turned 50 now and there is just my son and I, no family at all apart from him. He treats me terribly, he learnt that from my abusive ex. It is like living with my ex again, living with my son.
Anyway, that's some of it, I hope I don't sound full of self pity, when I came back I checked my signature and I feel just the same now as I did then....
I hadn't recovered completely after being here last, and now I am really bad again.
Depression and anxiety are my problems. Brought on by coping with my son who has mental health problems, the lack of support from the services assigned to him, and my terrible non-existent family. As you can probably tell I feel a lot of repressed anger which I know is causing some of the problems. My parents were hopeless, just disappeared, leaving my Gran to raise me. She was wonderful, if not for her I would not have survived.
Due to being a carer for my son I have had to hide my own problems, I have a fear of getting the help which I so desperately need. He was diagnosed ADHD at 5 and has been with the mental health system since, he was query bipolar and now is diagnosed ADHD/mood disorder.
I have spent my life helping others and there is nobody for me, I have been too soft and let my parents get away with ignoring me and living their own lives. They ignored my son too.
I am just turned 50 now and there is just my son and I, no family at all apart from him. He treats me terribly, he learnt that from my abusive ex. It is like living with my ex again, living with my son.
Anyway, that's some of it, I hope I don't sound full of self pity, when I came back I checked my signature and I feel just the same now as I did then....