BubblegumUK
27-10-12, 22:14
How often do you think you have a illness?
My anxieties started in 2009 when the room started spinning, was convinced it was a brain tumor, i still do think i have a brain tumor but thats a different story, anyway then i was convinced i had testicular cancer 2 or 3 times over the next year as well as the brain tumor, and it slowly got worse.
In the past year i thought i've had about 25 serious ilnesses (may not sound a lot but it is to me) most of them cancers or tumors. I'd say about 60-70% of these illnesses have been since May. It's getting worse. The slightest body ache/pain/sensation i obsess over and over and get paranoid about thinking it's x,y,z and then i become convinced. 3 things will happen, it'll just go away on its own, my doctor will tell me its something else or nothing at all (usually tells me its anxiety) or i'll get another symptom of something else and i'll start obsessing over that. It's doing my head in!!!
Yesterday i had severe abdominal pains, really really bad. At first i thought it was IBS so started researching it (bad idea i know) but then i noticed it was worse when i bent over and came to the conclusion that it was a pulled muscle, but then the pain went away after an hour so figured it can't be that, so then i thought (with no idea of what the symptoms are) that i had intestinal cancer, you don't get pains like that for no reason. Work colleagues think i just had bad wind or something.
Today i think i'm going deaf in my left ear so have been constantly checking my ears by conducting my own tests, and now, now i have a lump in my throat so am focusing on that now!!! arghhhhhh!!!!
why can't i just stop worrying and obsessing all the time :(
My anxieties started in 2009 when the room started spinning, was convinced it was a brain tumor, i still do think i have a brain tumor but thats a different story, anyway then i was convinced i had testicular cancer 2 or 3 times over the next year as well as the brain tumor, and it slowly got worse.
In the past year i thought i've had about 25 serious ilnesses (may not sound a lot but it is to me) most of them cancers or tumors. I'd say about 60-70% of these illnesses have been since May. It's getting worse. The slightest body ache/pain/sensation i obsess over and over and get paranoid about thinking it's x,y,z and then i become convinced. 3 things will happen, it'll just go away on its own, my doctor will tell me its something else or nothing at all (usually tells me its anxiety) or i'll get another symptom of something else and i'll start obsessing over that. It's doing my head in!!!
Yesterday i had severe abdominal pains, really really bad. At first i thought it was IBS so started researching it (bad idea i know) but then i noticed it was worse when i bent over and came to the conclusion that it was a pulled muscle, but then the pain went away after an hour so figured it can't be that, so then i thought (with no idea of what the symptoms are) that i had intestinal cancer, you don't get pains like that for no reason. Work colleagues think i just had bad wind or something.
Today i think i'm going deaf in my left ear so have been constantly checking my ears by conducting my own tests, and now, now i have a lump in my throat so am focusing on that now!!! arghhhhhh!!!!
why can't i just stop worrying and obsessing all the time :(