BettyCrumble
29-10-12, 14:38
I've been taking citalopram for 8 months now for depression, anxiety and panic. My dose was 20mg and I found that after 3 or so weeks it was really helping me.
I have felt so good for months now. Not altered personality or anything, just a perfectly grounded and normal me.
I went to the doctors and told her of my calm feelings and she suggested I wean off citalopram. I agreed and for the past week I have been on 10mg.
I feel awful:
Can't sleep/switch off/lie there worrying about things that don't effect me.
No motivation to get on with chores.
My children (on half term) are annoying me (more than just getting under my feet, I feel like I can't cope with their noise which isn't anything at all, they're being good)
Eating for comfort/boredom
Feel so low/teary/shouting and gritting my teeth at the slightest thing
Feel frustrated and choked up frustration in my chest
Basically I feel back to square 1.
I lived like that for so long, for years. I hated that person and thought she was gone forever. I'm now scared that it was the tablets that was giving me a false sense of the calm me. That upsets me. I really am a dragon.
I just want to have 2x 10mg to get back to normal.
I want to be off the tablets and just be calm me without the help.
At this moment I can't see that happening. If I take 2x 10mg citalopram I'll be back to where I was but I won't be beginning the journey in coming off them.
Can I take 2x10mg one day and 10mg the next for the foreseeable future? Should I just plod on with the 10mg i.e. is it just withdrawl and I will get calmer/nicer/more able to cope? Should I half one tablet and take 15mg a day?
I'm very confused. The doctor didn't prepare me for any of this. If I go back i'll be back on 20mg and truthfully I don't want to be.
Any help you can give me would be great
I think I want someone to tell me that the feelings I have is the withdrawl and to just keep on with the 10mg because I will get better. Is that a likely scenario?
I have felt so good for months now. Not altered personality or anything, just a perfectly grounded and normal me.
I went to the doctors and told her of my calm feelings and she suggested I wean off citalopram. I agreed and for the past week I have been on 10mg.
I feel awful:
Can't sleep/switch off/lie there worrying about things that don't effect me.
No motivation to get on with chores.
My children (on half term) are annoying me (more than just getting under my feet, I feel like I can't cope with their noise which isn't anything at all, they're being good)
Eating for comfort/boredom
Feel so low/teary/shouting and gritting my teeth at the slightest thing
Feel frustrated and choked up frustration in my chest
Basically I feel back to square 1.
I lived like that for so long, for years. I hated that person and thought she was gone forever. I'm now scared that it was the tablets that was giving me a false sense of the calm me. That upsets me. I really am a dragon.
I just want to have 2x 10mg to get back to normal.
I want to be off the tablets and just be calm me without the help.
At this moment I can't see that happening. If I take 2x 10mg citalopram I'll be back to where I was but I won't be beginning the journey in coming off them.
Can I take 2x10mg one day and 10mg the next for the foreseeable future? Should I just plod on with the 10mg i.e. is it just withdrawl and I will get calmer/nicer/more able to cope? Should I half one tablet and take 15mg a day?
I'm very confused. The doctor didn't prepare me for any of this. If I go back i'll be back on 20mg and truthfully I don't want to be.
Any help you can give me would be great
I think I want someone to tell me that the feelings I have is the withdrawl and to just keep on with the 10mg because I will get better. Is that a likely scenario?