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Edward_1980
30-10-12, 20:50
I had an operation on my testicle back in 1997 where surgeons removed a lump on my left testicle. It wasn't cancer or anything, but it terrified me beyond belief. I had to go for scans and Doctor's appointments, and since I was already suffering from Anxiety and Panic Attacks, it only made it worse for me. Right now I am in full Panic mode again because the same testicle is acting up again. It is very sensitive and painful to the point where I have to sit up and down with great care. It is also hanging down a lot lower than my right one and gives me a lot of pain during the day. I have been exploring myself and feeling for any lumps, and once again it is a lot bigger than my right one. My partner has booked an appointment for me to see my GP on Thursday because he has noticed how Anxious I have become, but I am terrified of recieving the worst possible results. I am really hoping that this could be an infection (I have trouble urinating) and that I won't need another operation, but right now, with the size, position and pain, I am assuming the worst. Please god don't put me through more scans and operations.
Try to stay calm Edward, you don't have long to wait until Thursday and like you say it could just be an infection.:bighug1::bighug1::bighug1:
Edward_1980
30-10-12, 21:24
I'm hoping so Annie. The last time I wasn't that Anxious because it was the start of my disorder, but this time around I am terrified that it is something terrible that the GPs won't be able to cure. The worst is swimming around my head right now and I am imagining the worst and that they won't be able to save the testicle. I need a Diazepam right now and am going to take one to calm myself. Also worried because I am about to run out of them and I'm not allowed to get any more. They have been a savior to me these past few days and just thinking about not having them after Friday is making me Anxious too.
You will hopefully feel calmer after you have seen the doctor :hugs:x
Edward_1980
30-10-12, 21:30
Hopefully Annie :) :hugs:
As you say, it sounds like some kind of infection.
Try to be calm, that's easy to say I know...
You will feel much better after seeing your doctor:bighug1:t
Edward_1980
30-10-12, 21:46
Oh, I hope so Justina. I feel helpless here :hugs:
Get them candles on and some relaxing music :) :hugs:
Edward_1980
30-10-12, 21:55
I have my lavender ready for my pillow Annie :hugs:
Hope you get a good nights sleep Edward :hugs:
Edward_1980
30-10-12, 22:15
You too Annie :) :hugs:
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