Rls1994
31-10-12, 13:30
I can explain why I am feeling this way, but I would go on forever about it. I'm having issues that are constantly happening and won't go away. I fear there will be no solution to my problems and that they will be there for life, which I won't put up with. I feel like such a failure and a useless burden to the world. I don't have any friends, but I have family, which is the most important thing to me. I'm constantly thinking, "If I'm gone, I won't need to suffer anymore". BUT, I'm holding back. I DON'T want to see my family in pain and suffer from the same depression I have, it's just selfish and cruel. I love my family too much to do such a thing.
So you see, I'm in a bit of a dilemma here...
I've been referred to a psychiatrist but I fear even they won't be able to help this severe depression. I've seen countless mentors and councillors in the past and it's done nothing to help me. I feel bad because I just wasted all of their time..
I have health issues (physically and mentally) and everyone, even the doctors assume it's anxiety related when I know most of my issues aren't. Which is just depressing me even more.
I don't have anyone to talk to.... My parents get fed up of my constant crying and complaining about depression and my health anxiety. So, I can't discuss this with them again..
I just don't know what to do.... :weep::weep:
So you see, I'm in a bit of a dilemma here...
I've been referred to a psychiatrist but I fear even they won't be able to help this severe depression. I've seen countless mentors and councillors in the past and it's done nothing to help me. I feel bad because I just wasted all of their time..
I have health issues (physically and mentally) and everyone, even the doctors assume it's anxiety related when I know most of my issues aren't. Which is just depressing me even more.
I don't have anyone to talk to.... My parents get fed up of my constant crying and complaining about depression and my health anxiety. So, I can't discuss this with them again..
I just don't know what to do.... :weep::weep: