MrsGrew
31-10-12, 19:21
Just new here..
I'm facing another bout of depression again, I feel so lost at the moment, as if I am slowly losing my mind.
I can't really explain it to anyone else as they just don't seem to understand.
I'm confused at the moment, I am having difficulty in remembering what day it is.
Other times I feel a kind of 'mania' whereby my thoughts race around in my mind and I can't control them.
I feel normal....and everything is fine and then bang, suddenly I can't cope and I feel overwhelmed.
I first had depression when I was 14, then had panic attacks when I was 16, I first went onto medication (Citalopram) at 17, this was 20mg, then due to bullying at school it was increased to 40mg as I found I just couldn't cope. Around 6 months later I developed diarrhea (which had no organic causes, but was stress induced IBS) and had panic attacks. Around 19 I came off medication and tried to live my life according to being a highly sensitive person. I try and push myself to do new things and also rest and take care of myself. In April this year I started a role in a call centre, as time went on I found the role too demanding, I started to forget things, cried before going to work, and had bowel problems. But I kept pushing myself, I was going to prove that I was normal and I could handle this....but alas, I could not. I left a couple of weeks ago as I just couldn't do it anymore. And now I just feel empty and lost.
I'm facing another bout of depression again, I feel so lost at the moment, as if I am slowly losing my mind.
I can't really explain it to anyone else as they just don't seem to understand.
I'm confused at the moment, I am having difficulty in remembering what day it is.
Other times I feel a kind of 'mania' whereby my thoughts race around in my mind and I can't control them.
I feel normal....and everything is fine and then bang, suddenly I can't cope and I feel overwhelmed.
I first had depression when I was 14, then had panic attacks when I was 16, I first went onto medication (Citalopram) at 17, this was 20mg, then due to bullying at school it was increased to 40mg as I found I just couldn't cope. Around 6 months later I developed diarrhea (which had no organic causes, but was stress induced IBS) and had panic attacks. Around 19 I came off medication and tried to live my life according to being a highly sensitive person. I try and push myself to do new things and also rest and take care of myself. In April this year I started a role in a call centre, as time went on I found the role too demanding, I started to forget things, cried before going to work, and had bowel problems. But I kept pushing myself, I was going to prove that I was normal and I could handle this....but alas, I could not. I left a couple of weeks ago as I just couldn't do it anymore. And now I just feel empty and lost.