Melon1
04-11-12, 08:11
Hi All
Haven't posted since the summer but lying here in bed and can't take it anymore. My HA flared up again about 2 weeks ago. Began to feel period like irritable pains which then spread to my lower back and feel like there is a pressure in my vaginal/ rectum area. It is all again mainly on my left side and get aches in my left leg.
I went to the docs last Monday and she tested my urine and said I was borderline infection so gave me antibiotics. I also went for a scan of my ovaries at the hospital as I told her of my fear of cancer. Anyway had the scan. The radiographer wouldn't tell me anything so will go to docs tomorrow and hopefully results will be in. Antibiotics haven't worked in my opinion as pains are all still here!
My mind is working overtime! I have convinced myself I have some form of cancer. Either ovarian, cervical or bowel and I am terrified. Really need some reassurance.
Stupidly I googled symptoms and because of the abdo pain it brought up everything!
I started a very heavy period on thurs eve and it now seems to have stopped. That's only 2 days! I am due on tomorrow so came on early. I am now worried that it was not a period and cervical bleeding. I had a clear smear last year but worry how accurate they are. Does anyone know? I have also had looser stools, no blood or anything and regular generally once a day but the pressure in my bum area feels horrible.
I have read back on some of my previous posts and these symptoms reared their head about a year ago although from my fuzzy memory weren't as bad as this time. I had an ovary scan last year which was fine.
Just don't know how to break thus cycle. Had CBT. Didn't work, saw a lovely counsellor who couldn't work out what was wrong. On the surface I do appear normal, fun loving etc. I play sports, eat pretty healthily, like a few wines (don't we all!) but can't shift this cloud of HA. Wish I could just accept life as it is and enjoy every minute. What's the point if constantly worrying about dying?!! Wish my counsellor had just tried to knock some sense into me rather than the nicey nicey approach.
Broached my worries with my husband on Friday. I could just see itin his face he was thinking not again! When I go through these episodes it affects everything. I think about my symptoms 24/7. I can't play with my children without getting sad about leaving them due to cancer. I fear for then having my fears one day and hope to god they take after their dad!
My mother in law died from Alzheimer's last weekend and we have all been so sad. Also my granny has suddenly gone downhill and won't last long so death is everywhere.
I find myself looking at people in the street and thinking 'she's managed to live to 79 ish maybe i can' and looking at large groups of people and working out the ratio of 1 in 3 and thinking it doesn't look that bad! What am I like!? X
Sorry for the rant but just don't know what to do. Hope someone can reassure me. Have a lovely Sunday everyone. Xx
Haven't posted since the summer but lying here in bed and can't take it anymore. My HA flared up again about 2 weeks ago. Began to feel period like irritable pains which then spread to my lower back and feel like there is a pressure in my vaginal/ rectum area. It is all again mainly on my left side and get aches in my left leg.
I went to the docs last Monday and she tested my urine and said I was borderline infection so gave me antibiotics. I also went for a scan of my ovaries at the hospital as I told her of my fear of cancer. Anyway had the scan. The radiographer wouldn't tell me anything so will go to docs tomorrow and hopefully results will be in. Antibiotics haven't worked in my opinion as pains are all still here!
My mind is working overtime! I have convinced myself I have some form of cancer. Either ovarian, cervical or bowel and I am terrified. Really need some reassurance.
Stupidly I googled symptoms and because of the abdo pain it brought up everything!
I started a very heavy period on thurs eve and it now seems to have stopped. That's only 2 days! I am due on tomorrow so came on early. I am now worried that it was not a period and cervical bleeding. I had a clear smear last year but worry how accurate they are. Does anyone know? I have also had looser stools, no blood or anything and regular generally once a day but the pressure in my bum area feels horrible.
I have read back on some of my previous posts and these symptoms reared their head about a year ago although from my fuzzy memory weren't as bad as this time. I had an ovary scan last year which was fine.
Just don't know how to break thus cycle. Had CBT. Didn't work, saw a lovely counsellor who couldn't work out what was wrong. On the surface I do appear normal, fun loving etc. I play sports, eat pretty healthily, like a few wines (don't we all!) but can't shift this cloud of HA. Wish I could just accept life as it is and enjoy every minute. What's the point if constantly worrying about dying?!! Wish my counsellor had just tried to knock some sense into me rather than the nicey nicey approach.
Broached my worries with my husband on Friday. I could just see itin his face he was thinking not again! When I go through these episodes it affects everything. I think about my symptoms 24/7. I can't play with my children without getting sad about leaving them due to cancer. I fear for then having my fears one day and hope to god they take after their dad!
My mother in law died from Alzheimer's last weekend and we have all been so sad. Also my granny has suddenly gone downhill and won't last long so death is everywhere.
I find myself looking at people in the street and thinking 'she's managed to live to 79 ish maybe i can' and looking at large groups of people and working out the ratio of 1 in 3 and thinking it doesn't look that bad! What am I like!? X
Sorry for the rant but just don't know what to do. Hope someone can reassure me. Have a lovely Sunday everyone. Xx