katybecca
13-08-06, 11:44
Hi guys, here is my story if you wish to read it and offer any advice you can, that would be great
I am 25 years old at present and started having mild anxiety attacks at the age of 19 when I worked in john lewis. So mild in fact I didnt think anything of them, I just thought I was having dizzy spells. I gave up my job and went back to college. I didnt settle there either so I was fliting between jobs. I was in a bad relationship at the time and this man was awful to me. Putting me down, staying out all night with other girls etc etc. I finally found the courage to leave him, but wasnt working at the time, so I was in the house quite a lot. I met someone else who was really kind (or so I thought) I felt really happy at first. I still wasnt working but we were going out and doing normal things. Going to the pub restaurants etc, and if I felt a bit anxious a few drinks noramlly sorted me out. But three years ago I went to the hospital for my annual heart checkup (I have had a hole in my heart since I was 5 years old) and they told me that it had gotton worse and they needed to perform open heart surgery on me to replace one of my valves. Well that was it for me, I sunk into a deep depression and wouldnt leave the house. I would even answer the door or phone I was that panicky.
The day arrived when it was time for my surgery and I was such a mess, my weight had gone down loads and I was just feeling terrible. They prepped my for my op and I was given a pre med all ready to go, then was told that they couldnt fit me in that day and was told to go home and they would rearrange my op. It was awful waiting another 3 weeks to go back in as I had got myself all prepared to do it.
anyway to cut a long story short I had the op and I thought all my anxiety and worry would go after it was done, but I was very wrong. My boyfriend at the time left me 3 months after as he couldnt cope with my depression and anxiety anymore. 3 years on and I am still very much the same although I have a new man who is wonderful, we actually bought a flat together and I was doing really well. Going out quite a bit and having a little part time job in a pub.
Me and my partner are still together put I have moved back to my parents as I feel like I am back to square one again. I am seriously depressed and dont want to go out at all. Its awful and I dont know what to do
I am so so sorry this story is so long but I needed to get it off my chest
It is my friends engagment party on sat and it is sending me into a fit of panic and I just cant face it, but I have to go
pleeeeeeeeeeeeease help
love katy
I am 25 years old at present and started having mild anxiety attacks at the age of 19 when I worked in john lewis. So mild in fact I didnt think anything of them, I just thought I was having dizzy spells. I gave up my job and went back to college. I didnt settle there either so I was fliting between jobs. I was in a bad relationship at the time and this man was awful to me. Putting me down, staying out all night with other girls etc etc. I finally found the courage to leave him, but wasnt working at the time, so I was in the house quite a lot. I met someone else who was really kind (or so I thought) I felt really happy at first. I still wasnt working but we were going out and doing normal things. Going to the pub restaurants etc, and if I felt a bit anxious a few drinks noramlly sorted me out. But three years ago I went to the hospital for my annual heart checkup (I have had a hole in my heart since I was 5 years old) and they told me that it had gotton worse and they needed to perform open heart surgery on me to replace one of my valves. Well that was it for me, I sunk into a deep depression and wouldnt leave the house. I would even answer the door or phone I was that panicky.
The day arrived when it was time for my surgery and I was such a mess, my weight had gone down loads and I was just feeling terrible. They prepped my for my op and I was given a pre med all ready to go, then was told that they couldnt fit me in that day and was told to go home and they would rearrange my op. It was awful waiting another 3 weeks to go back in as I had got myself all prepared to do it.
anyway to cut a long story short I had the op and I thought all my anxiety and worry would go after it was done, but I was very wrong. My boyfriend at the time left me 3 months after as he couldnt cope with my depression and anxiety anymore. 3 years on and I am still very much the same although I have a new man who is wonderful, we actually bought a flat together and I was doing really well. Going out quite a bit and having a little part time job in a pub.
Me and my partner are still together put I have moved back to my parents as I feel like I am back to square one again. I am seriously depressed and dont want to go out at all. Its awful and I dont know what to do
I am so so sorry this story is so long but I needed to get it off my chest
It is my friends engagment party on sat and it is sending me into a fit of panic and I just cant face it, but I have to go
pleeeeeeeeeeeeease help
love katy