rapidhopeloss
06-11-12, 20:41
wondering if this is part of dp..or anxiety :\ Over thinking constantly,mind just won't shut up, wondering if you are real,feeling like you don't know who you are, worriying that you are going to suddenly lose your mind and just go all out mental and having no control over your actions? :\ Its odd. I have just gotten into a new relationship and spent the weekend at my boyfriends place, he shares a place with three other people and most of the time I was just worrying,and feeling like things/they weren't real and just, uggh! Mind on overdrive, worrying that I was going to go mental or pass out, or somehow disappear :\ I dunno it's odd to explain but its horrid. Sometimes Id look at them and think hmm are they real? am I real? what if I suddenly lose my mind, lose control of myself and go mental? . I am meant to be going to stay again on the weekend and I am terrified. I think maybe because its change, new relationship, new place to go, new people..its freaking me out a bit as I am not one for change,it always panics me. I don't know. I get so overwhelmed with worry/anxiety/panic and I get the feeling that I need to escape or something, find someplace safe. But there is nowhere safe as its all in my head, and follows me everywhere. Its hard to explain how I feel but I do feel I am going insane, and that I dont know who I am