amber angel
07-11-12, 21:09
Ever since I had my first panic attack I feel my whole look on life has changed.
I desperately want to feel how I did before but I am now thinking about death all the time! I find myself constantly thinking horrible thoughts about myself, family and my boyfriend.
I worry so much about how i would cope if one of my parents died... or my brother!
I worry about my parents health and worry about them when they are driving!
I worry about my own health telling myself I will die experiencing some horrible, long, painful heart attack or stroke..... or something else equally horrible. I also believe I won't live a long life!
I worry about waking up one morning and my boyfriend lying dead next to me.
I do not know how I would cope with any of these things.
I realise and understand how crazy my thoughts sound and how much of a waste of time and energy thinking these things are... but I cant seem to turn it off!!!
If anybody has any advice or can help I would be really grateful!
I desperately want to feel how I did before but I am now thinking about death all the time! I find myself constantly thinking horrible thoughts about myself, family and my boyfriend.
I worry so much about how i would cope if one of my parents died... or my brother!
I worry about my parents health and worry about them when they are driving!
I worry about my own health telling myself I will die experiencing some horrible, long, painful heart attack or stroke..... or something else equally horrible. I also believe I won't live a long life!
I worry about waking up one morning and my boyfriend lying dead next to me.
I do not know how I would cope with any of these things.
I realise and understand how crazy my thoughts sound and how much of a waste of time and energy thinking these things are... but I cant seem to turn it off!!!
If anybody has any advice or can help I would be really grateful!