amber angel
08-11-12, 21:37
Ever since my first panic attack I have not felt myself at all.
I think so negatively and feel so down all the time. I want so much to be the person I was before this happened to be happy and cheery and also not to panic every time I have to socialise! I used to love a good night out!
I feel when I am alone that I over think and my brain goes into overdrive.
I am scared sometimes because I feel like I am holding onto my sanity and that it could snap at any moment. I also feel agitated a lot and like I could just hit somebody or do something out of character.... and for absolutely no reason!
I know I would never do it :blush: but I just hate even having the urge. It's not me!!
People say it is just my anxiety. Whatever it is.... it is completely terrifying and the thought of me losing my mind and not having control over myself makes me want to cry. Picturing my family having to deal with it or picturing myself in a mental home.
This is very frustrating. Please tell me I am not the only one!
Thanks for reading x
I think so negatively and feel so down all the time. I want so much to be the person I was before this happened to be happy and cheery and also not to panic every time I have to socialise! I used to love a good night out!
I feel when I am alone that I over think and my brain goes into overdrive.
I am scared sometimes because I feel like I am holding onto my sanity and that it could snap at any moment. I also feel agitated a lot and like I could just hit somebody or do something out of character.... and for absolutely no reason!
I know I would never do it :blush: but I just hate even having the urge. It's not me!!
People say it is just my anxiety. Whatever it is.... it is completely terrifying and the thought of me losing my mind and not having control over myself makes me want to cry. Picturing my family having to deal with it or picturing myself in a mental home.
This is very frustrating. Please tell me I am not the only one!
Thanks for reading x