sapphire
16-08-06, 17:01
Hi everybody,
I'm new to the forum so I hope you don't mind my first post being one long moan.
Basically I've had social anxiety since I was about 17/18 but didn't start getting treatment for it till I was 20ish and I'm now 25. The condition has made things like going out really difficult and I've never had a proper nine to five job so I'm still living with my parents until I sort myself out - I know it sounds really pathetic - sorry.
we usually get along fine together . My parents are really supportive and I like living with them. Since I left school I was working as a dog sitter to earn some money while I was studying gemmology and things were going slowly but okay.
Lately everythings changed as my grandparents have moved in with us. I'm finding it really difficult as my grandmothers a real witch and she's said horrible things to me in the past which have added to the social anxiety problem and I just can't get past them. The things she said made me hate myself and her and I just don't want to spend time with her which is difficult as we're now in the same house. Every time I go downstairs they comment on it I can't do anything on the ground floor without her hoving into sight and being a leech it's becoming impossible.
Also I screwed up my final exams. I was too scared to sit the practical exam so the theory paper that I did sit didn't get marked and it's just an automatic fail so I've completely wasted the last 18months.
Sorry for the length of this post, you probably all think I'm really pathetic. I haven't told anyone I know about the exam, I just feel so
and hopeless like I don't want to keep trying any more. I wish I was dead.
I'm new to the forum so I hope you don't mind my first post being one long moan.
Basically I've had social anxiety since I was about 17/18 but didn't start getting treatment for it till I was 20ish and I'm now 25. The condition has made things like going out really difficult and I've never had a proper nine to five job so I'm still living with my parents until I sort myself out - I know it sounds really pathetic - sorry.
we usually get along fine together . My parents are really supportive and I like living with them. Since I left school I was working as a dog sitter to earn some money while I was studying gemmology and things were going slowly but okay.
Lately everythings changed as my grandparents have moved in with us. I'm finding it really difficult as my grandmothers a real witch and she's said horrible things to me in the past which have added to the social anxiety problem and I just can't get past them. The things she said made me hate myself and her and I just don't want to spend time with her which is difficult as we're now in the same house. Every time I go downstairs they comment on it I can't do anything on the ground floor without her hoving into sight and being a leech it's becoming impossible.
Also I screwed up my final exams. I was too scared to sit the practical exam so the theory paper that I did sit didn't get marked and it's just an automatic fail so I've completely wasted the last 18months.
Sorry for the length of this post, you probably all think I'm really pathetic. I haven't told anyone I know about the exam, I just feel so
and hopeless like I don't want to keep trying any more. I wish I was dead.