evernon
13-11-12, 21:50
Hi, this is my first post here so I hope I'm putting it in the right place. Basically I've had anxiety on and off for the past 7 years. I had it under control for a good 3 years recently, and it really didn't bother me at all, I almost forgot I'd ever had it, it was wonderful. However recently my life has become very difficult and stressful. I'm going through a very painful/angry breakup, and I also am working a job I really hate and I've been worried on a constant basis about what I'm going to do with my life now, and I've found my anxiety coming back. However some of the symptoms I'm having seem different to last time, and its making me worry that its something else.
The scariest symptom I have is that I get times when I get panicky/anxious and then I can't seem to concentrate or put my thoughts together properly. Its like I can't think, and my mind goes strange and blank, and the thoughts don't make sense. It really frightens me, and then I end up panicking even more. I also keep getting times when I have this nagging 'bad feeling' just niggling at me, and I can't figure out why its there, I just feel bad like something bad has happened (but nothing has). Then the worst of my symptoms is feeling like I can't see properly. I get spaced out/light headed and I feel like I'm in a vacuum... like I can't focus my eyes on anything, I get tunnel vision, and start to feel like I'm not really there and I can't remember who I am/where I am. Of course this makes me panic more and makes my heart race and I feel like I'm going to literally pass out. It happened at work today and I got a pounding headache afterwards, and I'm really scared its more than just anxiety. But then I convince myself it is anxiety because when I get these symptoms I feel very anxious and can't relax. I have always had issues with health anxiety so I keep worrying there's something worse wrong with me :(
Please can anyone give me reassurance? Have you had similar symptoms? Do you find your symptoms can change with each separate bout of anxiety? I'm really scared :( I told myself I'd never let anxiety rule my life again but here its is!!!
The scariest symptom I have is that I get times when I get panicky/anxious and then I can't seem to concentrate or put my thoughts together properly. Its like I can't think, and my mind goes strange and blank, and the thoughts don't make sense. It really frightens me, and then I end up panicking even more. I also keep getting times when I have this nagging 'bad feeling' just niggling at me, and I can't figure out why its there, I just feel bad like something bad has happened (but nothing has). Then the worst of my symptoms is feeling like I can't see properly. I get spaced out/light headed and I feel like I'm in a vacuum... like I can't focus my eyes on anything, I get tunnel vision, and start to feel like I'm not really there and I can't remember who I am/where I am. Of course this makes me panic more and makes my heart race and I feel like I'm going to literally pass out. It happened at work today and I got a pounding headache afterwards, and I'm really scared its more than just anxiety. But then I convince myself it is anxiety because when I get these symptoms I feel very anxious and can't relax. I have always had issues with health anxiety so I keep worrying there's something worse wrong with me :(
Please can anyone give me reassurance? Have you had similar symptoms? Do you find your symptoms can change with each separate bout of anxiety? I'm really scared :( I told myself I'd never let anxiety rule my life again but here its is!!!