suzanne
17-08-06, 10:31
Hi
I feel so good about myself today i felt i must tell everyone, after being almost house bound with panic for 3 weeks while starting on medication again., i actually acheived something.
We have the use of a narrowboat all summer and this was only my second trip(too scared to go out of the security of home). It was only meant to be a quick trip down the canal with my partner, daughter and my gay best friend, but we missed the turnround point and had to continue for another 1 1/2 hours to the next one. By now it was dark and we couldnt travel in the dark so we made the decision to sleep on the boat until light again then get home so everyone except me and Josie could get to work. We had no supplies and hadnt a clue where we were and struggled with the electricity. Eventually we found a shop where i had walked (with no security of a car) and we stocked up, after hours of laughing we finally got to sleep and set back for home at 6am. It was so peaceful.
I still cannot beleive i did it, im a little in shock at the moment ( or is it cause im tired) I think it was all the laughing that stopped me having a panic attack, and of course the peacefulness.
If anyone wants to have a look at the photos i have posted them on my website under the page The Norton Four canal trip.
My website is www.scoobysue.piczo.com.
Take care and thanks for listening
Suzanne xxxxxxxxxxxxx
s shaw
I feel so good about myself today i felt i must tell everyone, after being almost house bound with panic for 3 weeks while starting on medication again., i actually acheived something.
We have the use of a narrowboat all summer and this was only my second trip(too scared to go out of the security of home). It was only meant to be a quick trip down the canal with my partner, daughter and my gay best friend, but we missed the turnround point and had to continue for another 1 1/2 hours to the next one. By now it was dark and we couldnt travel in the dark so we made the decision to sleep on the boat until light again then get home so everyone except me and Josie could get to work. We had no supplies and hadnt a clue where we were and struggled with the electricity. Eventually we found a shop where i had walked (with no security of a car) and we stocked up, after hours of laughing we finally got to sleep and set back for home at 6am. It was so peaceful.
I still cannot beleive i did it, im a little in shock at the moment ( or is it cause im tired) I think it was all the laughing that stopped me having a panic attack, and of course the peacefulness.
If anyone wants to have a look at the photos i have posted them on my website under the page The Norton Four canal trip.
My website is www.scoobysue.piczo.com.
Take care and thanks for listening
Suzanne xxxxxxxxxxxxx
s shaw