Itsonlyme26
21-11-12, 19:47
Hi , I am new here. This will my first ever posting on a forum :-) so don't be annoyed if I ramble on. I want my first posting to be a serious subject , I'm a serious guy , it means a lot to me but anyway I'll get started. Since last year I have been take AD's I first started off with 20 mg fluoxetine and after awhile I felt it wasn't effective so my doctor put up the dose to 40mg , which didn't really do much it just made me really hyper and extremely happy. However it wasn't normal happy I'd be happy about the stupidest thing e.g 'wow what a good day , I think I'll say hello to anybody' so not happy in a good way , not for me anyway. 4 weeks ago we decided to change to citalopram 20mg and at first it made me really hyper and again extremely happy but this time it felt like I was on illegal substances , so I really didn't mind. Anything is better then feeling depressed , right ? However those symptoms have now gone and I feel sort of normal it's like I'm not even on AD's , is that normal ? It has lead me to think are they actually working or are they not strong enough ? I really don't want to up the dose because I don't want to be drugged up , I'm sorry if that sounds rude. My doctor told me to come back to him for a one to one review on how the AD's are working but as usuall I can't get an appointment , not for two weeks ! Which to me is totally stupid especially when you are dealing with people with anxiety and depression , I was told to come back after all. All my life I have found it extremely hard to remain in a positive state of mind and if I do it usually doesn't last very long. I do get times when I am happy and I'm also hyper with a lot of excitement my fiance usually tells me to calm down , which I do but I feel very sleepy after. When I get like that I know I'm doing it but I have no control over it I just get excited for no real reason , weird I know. I always go through phases where like one month I get depressed and then the next month will be my happy phases I know that sounds crazy but it's normal for me. So since I can't get to my doctors does anyone know what is going on ? I have had therapy but feel it didn't work because I honestly feel like this is a condition I tried all the techniques learned in therapy but nothing worked. So please help , thanks