Melisssa
22-11-12, 12:09
Anxiety is a natural emotion, it's us who creates a monster out of it.. I believe reading and knowleged of the illness is the most beneficial. There are some great books out there. It got me through the death of my mother. I refused medication. Though I'm not against it of its needed. I spent weeks having full blown panic attacks that hit me in waves. I ran to my sisters and stayed with her. I was too scared to leave. My security In life was gone (my mother). Every time I calmed down reality would hit again, my mother was Dead. I was 33 with 3 children, and a husband. The reality of life and death suddenly became real. I'd never been to a funeral. It was the hardest time of my life. I got out of it by reading. I can have a panic attack and literally sit through it, I reconise it so well. I'd rather panic than sneaky subtle signs of anxiety that force you to believe your going to die from some illness. Atleast a panic attack fizzles out.. Though can leave you feeling kicked in the guts for days. :( We just have to remember we are having a normal emotion, just blown out of proportion. I think anxious people are more aware of reality, where as others just cruze along with life, and take what comes. I think anxious people look beyond. We are deep thinkers! That's why meditation is a great tool.. It teaches the mind to calm. There are plenty of methods that work.. I was so worn out for panic, I would have welcomed fainting.. I got so angry I dared it to hurt me. I got so tired of letting my mind control my feelings. If I panicked I sit and breath through it.. And let it pass.. Horrible, but it won't stop until you stop running from it.. I realized that when I realized I can't run from myself.. Untimatly without medication I had no choice other than to control my emotions. Now mines has manifested into health anxiety, but I'm going to rein it in.. Worrying wont change a thing, especially a diagnosis! All it's doing is robbing us of preciuous days
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Btw Ive been on the MS Bandwagaon, until I realized, if my dizziness or muscle cramps are MS then I can deal with it. I'm not going to put myself through testing that doesn't always diagnose the illness for a long time, Only to find out I've got a real reason to worry!! I'm happy to call it anxiety! It never hurt anyone :)
---------- Post added at 21:39 ---------- Previous post was at 21:35 ----------
Btw Ive been on the MS Bandwagaon, until I realized, if my dizziness or muscle cramps are MS then I can deal with it. I'm not going to put myself through testing that doesn't always diagnose the illness for a long time, Only to find out I've got a real reason to worry!! I'm happy to call it anxiety! It never hurt anyone :)