clover1201
26-11-12, 08:45
So, I think i have anxiety. I have been to the Drs alot recently! My heart started skipping beats/adding extra and it threw me for the first time ever into a panic attack. I have only ever had 1 attack (2 months ago) but since then my life has become a living hell! I ended up in A+E because every time i had these beats my body would throw me into panic and and i would think I was having a heart attack. They did an ECG and it came back as abnormal (st and t wave abnormity - consider lateral ischemia) The drs let me out the same day saying that my heart rate, although high (160bpm) was regular and normal but i should get my heart checked to find out why my ecg is abnormal. I have since had a heart monitor on and although when I get paniced my heart rate goes up alot, it is still regular - the dr says i have nothing to worry about. I however dont feel the same. I honestly thought and still think a little bit that i have heart desease (ischemia)! On top of this I have now developed the most hideous indegestion ever and it kills me, the pain is so intense i feel like im having a heart attack or angina attack (would be what someone with heart desease would feel) see where im coming from? On top of this I have had a peroid that has lasted 9 weeks! I have an implant and do bleed irregulary with it but normally I have to take 3, maybe 4 days of the pill and it stops the bleeding - not this time though, 2 weeksinto a pill packet and its still there! I have had alot of history with abnormal smears and at the age of 22 was a stage away from cervical cancer (CIN 3) I had treatment and have had annual smears since and they have always been normal (including my last one) but I am now convinced I have cevical cancer because the bleeding has been so ongoing. My Dr is going to think im a freak when i get to him again.
In all of this, I jsut feel like im going mad! I tried to take my daughter to the cinema the other night and it was hell, I sat there panicing the whole time, but about what 0 I dont know! Im a mess and I hate it!. I just keep thinking what are my poor children going to do if I go mad or turn into a recluse. I will beat this, i just need help and to know where to sart. Apparenty there is a trigger but with me there really isnt! I dont know what started this and why it is happening. Life was really good until this started (although I did have a very hard 6 years prior.
I know this is a very long winded post but advice on how to deal with this or where to go would be good. I dont want any meds but do needs something to help as I am in a constant state of anxiety (but dont know what about, other than health).
In all of this, I jsut feel like im going mad! I tried to take my daughter to the cinema the other night and it was hell, I sat there panicing the whole time, but about what 0 I dont know! Im a mess and I hate it!. I just keep thinking what are my poor children going to do if I go mad or turn into a recluse. I will beat this, i just need help and to know where to sart. Apparenty there is a trigger but with me there really isnt! I dont know what started this and why it is happening. Life was really good until this started (although I did have a very hard 6 years prior.
I know this is a very long winded post but advice on how to deal with this or where to go would be good. I dont want any meds but do needs something to help as I am in a constant state of anxiety (but dont know what about, other than health).