Glyph
30-11-12, 14:35
So, yeah, hello to everyone, I'm brand spanking new around here. Initially joined because of immediate concerns, but also because you guys all seem to be speaking a similar internal language to me.
My concerns at the moment involve my neck. I went to the Doctor’s today concerning a small lump in my upper neck. Four weeks ago the Doctor figured was an enlarged lymph node and told me to observe it and come back if it didn't change or got bigger. It didn't change, so I went back and ended up with a different doctor. She was really good about it, and did all the checks to help rule out my fears...
The first thing I did was confess that I’d done that most stupid of things: I googled it. Repeatedly :doh:. And told her what the google searches seemed to insist it was, namely all the Lymphomas. She agreed with me that such websites really need to go because all they do is cause panic.
Headaches? Are probably due to my being anxious about it. The itching I’ve been getting? Well if it’s NOT the fact we just changed our washing liquid to a brand with quite a bit of febreeze in it, then it’s probably the case that I’ve been IMAGINING the symptom because I googled it. The body can persuade itself of itching anyway, without any assistance from google (sorry for any itching I just caused). Yet I remained concerned.
She thinks it feels like a cyst, but can’t be sure, so I’m being put in for a blood test Wednesday next week, and a scan appt which will be sent through the post. I have been told (with admittedly, a tiny bit of pushing from me) that this is completely routine. It’s been there for four weeks, I‘m tired a lot, and I’ve lost weight, so I get the scan and the blood test. It does NOT mean I have cancer. She reckons if it's not a cyst, then it’s more likely to be to do with my thyroid than my lymph nodes. If a biopsy is required afterwards, it will be done.
I have sworn off googling it. In theory.
I mean, I still feel very silly for worrying about this. I’m twenty five years old, not overweight, don’t smoke, don’t drink; I don't have a great diet (I don't eat enough, and eat the wrong things when I do), but that can be fixed, and no history of ANY of the diseases I’m worried about in the family. The odds are overwhelmingly in my favour... But none of that has stopped my brain for ten years, and isn't helping now. For some reason I'm still terrified it's going to turn out to be one of the big ones - thyroid cancer or lymphoma or something. What if I still have one of the big ones? I mean there's that one branch of thyroid (aplastic, I think? Not sure) that leaves you with something like only six months! :scared15: (Notice that that's the one I'm drawn to, not the three other, very easily treatable ones.)
Anyway I'm looking to see if others have had similar concerns and if there's anything I can do about it. :weep:
Thanks everyone. Hugs to you. :bighug1: (<--best emoticon ever.)
My concerns at the moment involve my neck. I went to the Doctor’s today concerning a small lump in my upper neck. Four weeks ago the Doctor figured was an enlarged lymph node and told me to observe it and come back if it didn't change or got bigger. It didn't change, so I went back and ended up with a different doctor. She was really good about it, and did all the checks to help rule out my fears...
The first thing I did was confess that I’d done that most stupid of things: I googled it. Repeatedly :doh:. And told her what the google searches seemed to insist it was, namely all the Lymphomas. She agreed with me that such websites really need to go because all they do is cause panic.
Headaches? Are probably due to my being anxious about it. The itching I’ve been getting? Well if it’s NOT the fact we just changed our washing liquid to a brand with quite a bit of febreeze in it, then it’s probably the case that I’ve been IMAGINING the symptom because I googled it. The body can persuade itself of itching anyway, without any assistance from google (sorry for any itching I just caused). Yet I remained concerned.
She thinks it feels like a cyst, but can’t be sure, so I’m being put in for a blood test Wednesday next week, and a scan appt which will be sent through the post. I have been told (with admittedly, a tiny bit of pushing from me) that this is completely routine. It’s been there for four weeks, I‘m tired a lot, and I’ve lost weight, so I get the scan and the blood test. It does NOT mean I have cancer. She reckons if it's not a cyst, then it’s more likely to be to do with my thyroid than my lymph nodes. If a biopsy is required afterwards, it will be done.
I have sworn off googling it. In theory.
I mean, I still feel very silly for worrying about this. I’m twenty five years old, not overweight, don’t smoke, don’t drink; I don't have a great diet (I don't eat enough, and eat the wrong things when I do), but that can be fixed, and no history of ANY of the diseases I’m worried about in the family. The odds are overwhelmingly in my favour... But none of that has stopped my brain for ten years, and isn't helping now. For some reason I'm still terrified it's going to turn out to be one of the big ones - thyroid cancer or lymphoma or something. What if I still have one of the big ones? I mean there's that one branch of thyroid (aplastic, I think? Not sure) that leaves you with something like only six months! :scared15: (Notice that that's the one I'm drawn to, not the three other, very easily treatable ones.)
Anyway I'm looking to see if others have had similar concerns and if there's anything I can do about it. :weep:
Thanks everyone. Hugs to you. :bighug1: (<--best emoticon ever.)