Em84
04-12-12, 20:52
Hi Guys
Ive not really been on here as much as i used to as ive been trying as much as possible to ignore my HA and just get on with life. Unfotunaltly over the last few months i have been through a few couple of stressful experiences, some life and some health related which i dont really want to get into on her as some are very personal.
Basically November 2011 after have my 2nd child 2 months before i was around 63kg, in April 2012 i was 56kg then in september this year i was 8.5 stone which i think is 53kg....I am skinny anyway at a size 8 but the weight loss has bothered me...the doctor has never really said anything but i just cant get the C word out of my head.
Ive been trying to put on weight but ive been failing by not eating as i should...
My main issue now is tensing...I never used to do this as i dont know if it became a habit during my stressful point, ie tensing to stop crying or showing emotion.
When i walk i feel like my legs are tense, my muscles havnt got bigger but my legs def feel harder to the touch...like the fat has just burned out of them...My face aches by the evening and im always catching myself in the mirror tensing my face, even now tyoing this my cheeks feel like they have had a workout.
I never used to do this but i want to stop so much as i know that being tense can burn calories and i just dont want to loose anymore weight. Im sick of people saying 'you've lost weight' or your super skinny...i just want to gain weight and be happy...
Does anyone else tense like this....how can i just stop this happening...
xx
Ive not really been on here as much as i used to as ive been trying as much as possible to ignore my HA and just get on with life. Unfotunaltly over the last few months i have been through a few couple of stressful experiences, some life and some health related which i dont really want to get into on her as some are very personal.
Basically November 2011 after have my 2nd child 2 months before i was around 63kg, in April 2012 i was 56kg then in september this year i was 8.5 stone which i think is 53kg....I am skinny anyway at a size 8 but the weight loss has bothered me...the doctor has never really said anything but i just cant get the C word out of my head.
Ive been trying to put on weight but ive been failing by not eating as i should...
My main issue now is tensing...I never used to do this as i dont know if it became a habit during my stressful point, ie tensing to stop crying or showing emotion.
When i walk i feel like my legs are tense, my muscles havnt got bigger but my legs def feel harder to the touch...like the fat has just burned out of them...My face aches by the evening and im always catching myself in the mirror tensing my face, even now tyoing this my cheeks feel like they have had a workout.
I never used to do this but i want to stop so much as i know that being tense can burn calories and i just dont want to loose anymore weight. Im sick of people saying 'you've lost weight' or your super skinny...i just want to gain weight and be happy...
Does anyone else tense like this....how can i just stop this happening...
xx