Pam
10-06-04, 10:57
Hi
I'm a bit wary about starting this as I don't want to get as obsessed with my health as I have been before. But I do feel I could do with some support at this moment.
I suffered very badly with panic attacks about 20 years ago and became very depressed and anxious and could hardly leave the house for months.
Eventually after counselling I learnt to control my panic attacks and to rise above my hypochondria. But I have always been worried about my health and get panicky about strange feelings. I just manage to deal with it better now.
However just recently I started having panic attacks at work. The reason was clear. I hate my job and am leaving in three months to go back to do an MA at university which I am really looking forward to.
However I feel trapped and claustraphobic at work and have started getting strange symptoms again.
I have had blood tests and seen the doctor a few times.
I was reassured that it was all stress related and I have started jogging to get more exercise and cut down on alcohol (I found one or two drinks a night would make me feel better).
The panic attacks have stopped and I felt more in control.
BUT in the past couple of weeks I have had a symptom I've not had before and now I think perhaps the doctors are all wrong and because of my past history they have just jumped to that conclusion.
I think I might have MS or Parkinsons disease (I know I haven't but you know the thought process!!)
I have a strange vibrating feeling throughout my body which is more noticeable when I am sitting at work or in bed. It's like a pulsing but it's not my heartbeat. Also it feels like my body is moving and pulsing and shaking inside but I don't think it actually looks like it is from the outside.
It's just a weird feeling and I want it to stop. I'm trying to ignore it and I thought if it is stress then it will eventually go away but now I am becoming obsessed and think it is the sign of some serious disease.
Please I hope somebody else understands this feeling and can reassure me.
I'm sorry to go on but I know that people reading this understand (unlike family, and even doctors who have never actually experienced it).
I'm worried because I have been coping so well for a very long time and I don't want this to spiral out of control especially when I have got so much to look forward to.
Pam
I'm a bit wary about starting this as I don't want to get as obsessed with my health as I have been before. But I do feel I could do with some support at this moment.
I suffered very badly with panic attacks about 20 years ago and became very depressed and anxious and could hardly leave the house for months.
Eventually after counselling I learnt to control my panic attacks and to rise above my hypochondria. But I have always been worried about my health and get panicky about strange feelings. I just manage to deal with it better now.
However just recently I started having panic attacks at work. The reason was clear. I hate my job and am leaving in three months to go back to do an MA at university which I am really looking forward to.
However I feel trapped and claustraphobic at work and have started getting strange symptoms again.
I have had blood tests and seen the doctor a few times.
I was reassured that it was all stress related and I have started jogging to get more exercise and cut down on alcohol (I found one or two drinks a night would make me feel better).
The panic attacks have stopped and I felt more in control.
BUT in the past couple of weeks I have had a symptom I've not had before and now I think perhaps the doctors are all wrong and because of my past history they have just jumped to that conclusion.
I think I might have MS or Parkinsons disease (I know I haven't but you know the thought process!!)
I have a strange vibrating feeling throughout my body which is more noticeable when I am sitting at work or in bed. It's like a pulsing but it's not my heartbeat. Also it feels like my body is moving and pulsing and shaking inside but I don't think it actually looks like it is from the outside.
It's just a weird feeling and I want it to stop. I'm trying to ignore it and I thought if it is stress then it will eventually go away but now I am becoming obsessed and think it is the sign of some serious disease.
Please I hope somebody else understands this feeling and can reassure me.
I'm sorry to go on but I know that people reading this understand (unlike family, and even doctors who have never actually experienced it).
I'm worried because I have been coping so well for a very long time and I don't want this to spiral out of control especially when I have got so much to look forward to.
Pam