sarbr
05-12-12, 22:06
Hi all,
I'm 19 and have suffered from anxiety/depression for as long as I can remember. The only treatment I've had was CBT over the summer which I thought had helped until I started uni in September. Since then I've gone right back to where I started...nervous about leaving the flat, tired all the time from lack of sleep/constant worrying, foggy head that makes me unorganised and unable to concentrate. I haven't told anyone here about my anxiety and have been bottling it up for three months pretending to be happy and fine. Yesterday I had a meeting about my attendance where I finally broke down and told my tutor what had been going on. She was incredibly supportive and has referred me to the psychology department as well as filling out a mitigating circumstances form which means that I can't fail the year. This was a massive relief but it seems that since then I have actually felt about a thousand times worse. I think it's because I've finally admitted to myself how I've been feeling too!
I'm on here because I have a placement tomorrow which I started last Thursday at a hospital (I'm studying occupational therapy). The last time I came my educator told me that I wasn't using my initiative at all and slated me saying that I was too relaxed. It was actually that my anxiety had hit the roof causing me to lose all my common sense! Since then I've been dreading going back. I forgot to mention this to my tutor but tonight I'm such a mess because I'm so anxious about tomorrow. I know it's going to be horrible and every bit of me doesn't want to go. But then I feel like I'm letting myself down if I don't.
Does anyone have any suggestions about what I should do? Should I go or should I email my tutor and explain exactly how I'm feeling? Do you think she'' understand? She is a very supportive person and is actually trained in the mental health field so knows exactly about the effects of anxiety but I'm not sure if she'll just think I'm trying to push my luck!
I plan to go to the doctors as soon as I have the time and get some medication as a short term solution which I would do tomorrow if I had the day off. Please someone get back to me..thanks for taking the time to read this!
---------- Post added at 22:06 ---------- Previous post was at 22:03 ----------
I broke down in a mock exam today too by the way (luckily it was a one to one so nobody else saw) but I'm just so scared that the same will happen tomorrow!
I'm 19 and have suffered from anxiety/depression for as long as I can remember. The only treatment I've had was CBT over the summer which I thought had helped until I started uni in September. Since then I've gone right back to where I started...nervous about leaving the flat, tired all the time from lack of sleep/constant worrying, foggy head that makes me unorganised and unable to concentrate. I haven't told anyone here about my anxiety and have been bottling it up for three months pretending to be happy and fine. Yesterday I had a meeting about my attendance where I finally broke down and told my tutor what had been going on. She was incredibly supportive and has referred me to the psychology department as well as filling out a mitigating circumstances form which means that I can't fail the year. This was a massive relief but it seems that since then I have actually felt about a thousand times worse. I think it's because I've finally admitted to myself how I've been feeling too!
I'm on here because I have a placement tomorrow which I started last Thursday at a hospital (I'm studying occupational therapy). The last time I came my educator told me that I wasn't using my initiative at all and slated me saying that I was too relaxed. It was actually that my anxiety had hit the roof causing me to lose all my common sense! Since then I've been dreading going back. I forgot to mention this to my tutor but tonight I'm such a mess because I'm so anxious about tomorrow. I know it's going to be horrible and every bit of me doesn't want to go. But then I feel like I'm letting myself down if I don't.
Does anyone have any suggestions about what I should do? Should I go or should I email my tutor and explain exactly how I'm feeling? Do you think she'' understand? She is a very supportive person and is actually trained in the mental health field so knows exactly about the effects of anxiety but I'm not sure if she'll just think I'm trying to push my luck!
I plan to go to the doctors as soon as I have the time and get some medication as a short term solution which I would do tomorrow if I had the day off. Please someone get back to me..thanks for taking the time to read this!
---------- Post added at 22:06 ---------- Previous post was at 22:03 ----------
I broke down in a mock exam today too by the way (luckily it was a one to one so nobody else saw) but I'm just so scared that the same will happen tomorrow!