grief :-(

[nicola1980]

Hi everyone, in the space of 5 weeks ive sadly lost both of my Grandads, both quite suddenly and im really struggling to cope, its one of theirs funeral tomo and really don't know how im going to get through it, i just can't stop crying and feel physically ill and emotionally drained, my anxiety has been playing up aswel to the point i had a panic attack yesterday morning, the first one in months as i had been doing so well, i just feel so numb and still shocked and can't believe this has happened in such a short space of time, my doc and cpn have tried to reassure me that what im feeling is completely normal and all part of the grieving process but im so scared im going backwards, can grief really make you feel so ill? xxxxxxx

[Thumbelina]

Really sorry nicola about your loss.
Try to think of the funeral tomorrow as celebration of your grandads life, that can make it easier.
Grieving., your doc is right, you will go theough stages and finally will move on. Time will help you.
Be strong, uour grandad wouldnt want you to be that sad.
Hugs hugsoooooooppp

[Annie0904]

I am really sorry to hear of your loss, and yes grief can feel so bad. Like Thumbalina said, try to think of it as a celebration of your Grandad's life. Sending you :hugs::hugs::hugs: x

[nicola1980]

Thankyou both of you :hugs: xx

[ElizabethJane]

:hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::hugs::h ugs:So sorry, sending hugsEJ

[nicola1980]

Thanks EJ :hugs: x x

[Sparkle1984]

Sorry to hear of your loss. I lost both of my grandads when I was very young, and one of my grandmothers died 9 years ago. When my grandads died I was too young to fully understand what was happening, but when my grandmother died I was 19 so it affected me a lot more. She had been ill for a long time but it was still very upsetting when she died. :weep:

Sending you hugs. :bighug1:

[nicola1980]

Thanks sparkle x x

[panickyme]

So sorry for you loses, that is a lot to handle. Hope you will find the strength to get by. Sending you some hugs.:hugs: :hugs::hugs::hugs:

[swgrl09]

I am so sorry for your loss. It is 100% normal. Honestly, and not to be depressing or freak you out, but after my mom died I felt numb for months ... maybe even the whole first year. I felt like I was walking around in a dream land that did not really exist. My anxiety was through the roof as well.

Be kind to yourself, just let yourself feel what you need to feel. :hugs:

[kittyhan]

So sorry to hear of your losses Nicola. You're being so brave and you're doing really well. Better then what I would be. You keep your head up petal and know that you have support here whenever you need it! Like swgrl09 said be kind to yourself and feel what you need to feel. Sending lots of hugs your way :hugs::hugs::hugs: xxx

[nicola1980]

Thankyou :hugs: x x im wide awake thinking about the funeral, i just cant believe this has all happened, i was particulary closer to my grandad we are burying today and just cant stop thinking about him, i just feel so sad, didnt realise how ill grief can make you feel :-( x x

[Dragon2012]

:hugs: try to think how they would want you to feel. Yes it can hurt a lot, so so much. But you have to help yourself to remove some of this feeling by keeping busy, dont give up on anything your doing. Just keep thinking would your grandfathers want you to be so sad? Buy something like a necklace, iv done this before. That will give you a memory of strength/ your grandfather, keep it by you. Everytime you feel like you will have a panic just cling hold to it and remember good times with them.
I always think, its just a panic? Whats the worst that can happen? I will faint? Fit? So what. Nothing could be so worse then the pain you feel, so what would a panic do?

xxx wish you all the best.