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belly
22-08-06, 16:55
hi,i need some advice really.I uncovered memories in counselling 4 months ago that i was raped,and since then i have had agoraphobia,panic attacks and ocd.These things are a lot better now as i no longer have the panic attacks,and feel more confident going out.I have had counselling about the issue while i was doing a college course,but when my course ended in may,i was told the counselling couldnt continue,as i was seeing a college counsellor.And they only offer counselling while ur on a course there.As the rape issue only came up about a moths before the counselling finished,i was very upset that the counselling had to end.Although i knew when the end was going to be,i thought given my circumstances they would consider me going back in september for more counselling.So the counselling ended really badly,as the counsellor that id built up trust with,seemed really cold with me,and i felt powerless again,after i had started to feel more empowered before.So i went to my gp to ask to be referred for counselling,not sure if i wanted it or not,and i got a letter from a mental health resource centre asking me to phone to make an appointment for an assessment with a 'clinician',not a counsellor.I phoned up and the woman i spoke to (a counsellor) said that for 'my case', meaning 'rape case',the assessment would have to be on a monday morning.I told her i work then and would have to get back to her.She also said i may need more appointments for 'further assessments'.I asked what the first assessment involved,but she wouldnt tell me.She was really horrible to me.It sounded to me like they were talking about a mental health assessment,not just to assess what kind of counselling i would need etc.I had a really bad feeling about the place and people,so i decided not to make an appointment there.Im still not sure if i want counselling,as if i do have it,i would like cbt,as ive seen someone who was person centred and just listened to me.And i dont want to talk about what happened over and over again,as ive done all that.I feel rteady to move on with my life,and feel that would be a step back.I have been phoning a rape helpline whove been great,as they understand withoout me having to explain how i feel,and would love to see a counsellor there,but i live outside the area,so i cant go there for face to face counselling.There is no other specialist places in my area.Does anyone have any advice?

Hangtough
26-08-06, 19:16
You're having a really rough time. For all the naff people there are out there, there are an equal number of excellent people who want to help, as you've found with the helpline. It's such a shame that you're out of their catchment area. Check out to see if there's anything else that you could access in your area. The library and citizens advice should hold this information for you, or you might be able to find it online. Whatever happens don't give up, the right person is out there waiting for you to help you through all of this. The important thing to do at the moment is to keep talking to whoever you can. This is a great site with lots of good people here to support you.

Hang on in there
Hangtough

Lynnann
13-09-06, 23:31
Hi Belly,
Please see PM

Hugs to you
Lynnann