Ferry1995
09-12-12, 17:38
Just feeling very down at the moment and needing some reassurance and advice.
6 months ago I came on with a severe bout of health anxiety after falling out with some friends and splitting up with my girlfriend, after a month I was put onto 20mg of clomipramine which slightly eliviated the problem, after a few slightly better months I started feeling really really tired and just generally much more anxious ( especially about my heart rate ) the doctor effectively said that the symptoms you describe could either be side effects of the medication or just general anx symptoms, so after coming off them, I had a brilliant first week at college and really started to make friends again, everything was going so well, my parents then went away for a week so I had some friends over and had quite a heavy night of drinking, the next day was okay, but the day afterwards I crashed for no reason whatsoever, I started feeling apsoloutely awful for no reason whatsoever, I had nothing to feel unhappy about, my life was going brilliantly, thinking I couldn't cope I decided to stop at my aunty's for the next week, which I spent in and out of A+E, worrying about my sanity. the world just started to turn into this dark unforgiving place, my memory started to fade and I just felt out of sorts ( over a dozen mental health professionals have confirmed this not to be derealisation, schizophrenia, split personality etc and I don't seem to be displaying any traits of depression, there are no external factors, everything is amazing in life, yet I feel terrible about everything, half the time I'll feel fine, and the other half will just be like a nightmare world, I'll start to feel groggy with blurred vision too, and i'm getting stabbing pains in my head, not headaches, kinda like intermittent stabbing pains, the doctors won't put me back on my meds and the cbt is doing nothing after about 12 weeks now, so I'm really not sure what there is left to do :(
Thanks for listening
6 months ago I came on with a severe bout of health anxiety after falling out with some friends and splitting up with my girlfriend, after a month I was put onto 20mg of clomipramine which slightly eliviated the problem, after a few slightly better months I started feeling really really tired and just generally much more anxious ( especially about my heart rate ) the doctor effectively said that the symptoms you describe could either be side effects of the medication or just general anx symptoms, so after coming off them, I had a brilliant first week at college and really started to make friends again, everything was going so well, my parents then went away for a week so I had some friends over and had quite a heavy night of drinking, the next day was okay, but the day afterwards I crashed for no reason whatsoever, I started feeling apsoloutely awful for no reason whatsoever, I had nothing to feel unhappy about, my life was going brilliantly, thinking I couldn't cope I decided to stop at my aunty's for the next week, which I spent in and out of A+E, worrying about my sanity. the world just started to turn into this dark unforgiving place, my memory started to fade and I just felt out of sorts ( over a dozen mental health professionals have confirmed this not to be derealisation, schizophrenia, split personality etc and I don't seem to be displaying any traits of depression, there are no external factors, everything is amazing in life, yet I feel terrible about everything, half the time I'll feel fine, and the other half will just be like a nightmare world, I'll start to feel groggy with blurred vision too, and i'm getting stabbing pains in my head, not headaches, kinda like intermittent stabbing pains, the doctors won't put me back on my meds and the cbt is doing nothing after about 12 weeks now, so I'm really not sure what there is left to do :(
Thanks for listening