Greg316
11-12-12, 23:18
My old habits reared their ugly head. I am so depressed. I had conquered my problems for the last 5 years with the help of this board and the grace of God, yet here I am humbled in the throes of anxiety.
I came down with strep throat a few days ago, and had the regular antibiotics prescribed, and settled down for a few days of sleep and Advil. My wife ended up getting strep the day after I did, so I had to take care of the 15 month old daughter since my wife was affected worse by the strep than I. After a hard day of playing Mr.Mom I settled down to watch the Monday Night Football game, and decided to go to bed at halftime with the game already out of reach.
I lay in bed for a while and start having the strangest thoughts and sights (only with my eyes closed??????). Instantly my anxiety flips on like a light, I'm checking my pulse constantly, pacing the room, doing push-ups, taking my blood pressure, taking ragged rapid breaths, and convinced I have some sort of brain affecting strep superbacteria, a heart attack, or a stroke. I do this for about 3 hours before finally getting to sleep.
Today is like a normal day 5 years ago, jittery arms and legs, adrenaline pumping, feeling like I need to run, chest and back tightness, spaciness.
Im turning back to you guys for help since it was this board that played a huge role in my recovery a few years ago. I do believe that the Lord is covering me right now with his love, I just need some help from you guys as it is so disparaging to be back at square 1 after so many years of peace.
I love all you guys, God bless you
I came down with strep throat a few days ago, and had the regular antibiotics prescribed, and settled down for a few days of sleep and Advil. My wife ended up getting strep the day after I did, so I had to take care of the 15 month old daughter since my wife was affected worse by the strep than I. After a hard day of playing Mr.Mom I settled down to watch the Monday Night Football game, and decided to go to bed at halftime with the game already out of reach.
I lay in bed for a while and start having the strangest thoughts and sights (only with my eyes closed??????). Instantly my anxiety flips on like a light, I'm checking my pulse constantly, pacing the room, doing push-ups, taking my blood pressure, taking ragged rapid breaths, and convinced I have some sort of brain affecting strep superbacteria, a heart attack, or a stroke. I do this for about 3 hours before finally getting to sleep.
Today is like a normal day 5 years ago, jittery arms and legs, adrenaline pumping, feeling like I need to run, chest and back tightness, spaciness.
Im turning back to you guys for help since it was this board that played a huge role in my recovery a few years ago. I do believe that the Lord is covering me right now with his love, I just need some help from you guys as it is so disparaging to be back at square 1 after so many years of peace.
I love all you guys, God bless you