OCD and Health anxiety

[sades101]

Hi, I'm Sadie. I'm 24 years old and have not long had a baby (he is now 4 months)

I have diagnosed OCD and health anxiety (apparently) although I really do think I'm ill and think they maybe try to make out I have health anxiety to make me question myself.

I have been finding things very hard the last couple of months, my OCD has become far worse than ever before as before I had my lil man I wasn't afraid of contamination (my OCD used to present itself in other ways, which it still does, but now I have the added contamination worries)

Also I am so scared I have cancer it is ruining my life. I cry nearly every day because I think I am going to die and that my little boy won't know or remember me and won't feel the amount of love I have for him.

I just want a full body test to make sure I don't have cancer, but feel as though the doctor is fighting me all of the way.

They found I had aneamia in my blood tests, I have a lump on the back of my neck and also on top of feeling like I may have Lymphoma I am also showing signs of colon cancer. I am tempted to go with bupa so that they will do the tests I want done ... I am seeing a specialist in february about the symptoms I have for colon cancer (after several visits to the doctor and asking them over and over for this they finally agreed)

But I'm not 'allowed' another blood test until february because I had one a month ago - but the anaemia obviously makes me worry as that can be a sign of cancer.

Just want some peoples responses to this and just other peoples experiences, I'm in a very fearful place at the moment and very very upset

[nomorepanic]

Hi sades101

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[almamatters]

Hi Sadie :welcome: . I so know where you are coming from at the moment. I have been diagnosed with GAD and HA, because of my weekly GP visits , constantly asking for tests, and self diagnosing of all different cancers, . My GP has done blood tests for everything under the sun to try and reassure me and everyone has come back normal. Of course I am not convinced and am now trying to get refereed for a full body MRI scan. I have had a few ultrasound scans, but even when I am told they are fine, I still think they have missed something. I constantly think I am seriously ill, even the GP tells me that I am not. I hope you find support on this site and I am sure a lot of people can relate to your story. Ultimately if the doctors are not worried about you then you are ok, if they were in any way concerned they would be rushing you through tests. :hugs: :hugs:

[sades101]

Hi thanks for the reply, I want to trust the doctors opinion, but sometimes feel they dismiss my symptoms because of my age and obviously my OCD and anxiety problems... I am extra worried because of the anaemia present in my last blood test. I may have to go back to the doctors to ask for another blood test... but otherwise will have to wait until February (when they want to re-check my iron levels)... :unsure: I just hate not knowing, I really want a full body MRI scan, but the way my doctors are I doubt that will happen, which is why I'm considering bupa... (if my parents will help with payments :blush: )

[fozzy is crying]

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