Rls1994
15-12-12, 01:13
OK, I'm really sick of this now (pardon the pun).
It really feels as if I need to vomit, but I'm thinking because I have emetophobia (fear of vomit), my brain is stopping me from vomiting or something. I reckon if I didn't fear vomiting, I would have been sick loads of times by now.
I can always tell whenever it's going to come up, and when it does, it only goes up as far as my throat - what happens from there is my choice. I either swallow or take a deep breath for it to go back down again. Then like half a minute later it does it again and again and again. It can do this for ages before it settles for a little while, then it's at it again. Sometimes I try forcing it because I think it may be a trapped burp, but I regret it, because that's usually when I get a vomit like taste in my mouth and a bit of liquidy stuff can be felt come up a bit in my throat, so I stop forcing it. It DOESN'T feel acidic most of the time so I'm guessing it's definitely not reflux. It just feels like vomit.... I'm burping quite a lot also.
It doesn't matter what I eat or whenever I eat, it always happens.. I can even feel it when I'm laying down in bed, it feels the exact same. I cannot sleep hardly because of it.. Some people are saying just to vomit to get rid of it but I just can't! I don't want to!
Thing is, WHY is this happening anyway? If it is vomit, then why? I've had this well over a year now and it's only recently gotten worse in the past 4 months or so.
I've been to the doctors several times over this issue now. Firstly they thought it was anxiety, then acid reflux, which they prescribed me medication for which didn't even work... (Gaviscon and Omerprazole). Now they're assuming it's anxiety again, when I'm almost certain it isn't.
My parents also think it's all anxiety and are getting sick of me complaining over it. It's really depressing me, because I can't live like this for the rest of my life.... I'm not ever going to let myself vomit, because I just can't and don't want to. Anyways even if I did, it may just come back again so what's the point?
It's getting awfully tempting to just end my life, because everyday I'm suffering and struggling to get through the day. As if anyone would care if I was gone anyway....
But anyway... Does anyone know what this is??? It's driving me nuts!!
It really feels as if I need to vomit, but I'm thinking because I have emetophobia (fear of vomit), my brain is stopping me from vomiting or something. I reckon if I didn't fear vomiting, I would have been sick loads of times by now.
I can always tell whenever it's going to come up, and when it does, it only goes up as far as my throat - what happens from there is my choice. I either swallow or take a deep breath for it to go back down again. Then like half a minute later it does it again and again and again. It can do this for ages before it settles for a little while, then it's at it again. Sometimes I try forcing it because I think it may be a trapped burp, but I regret it, because that's usually when I get a vomit like taste in my mouth and a bit of liquidy stuff can be felt come up a bit in my throat, so I stop forcing it. It DOESN'T feel acidic most of the time so I'm guessing it's definitely not reflux. It just feels like vomit.... I'm burping quite a lot also.
It doesn't matter what I eat or whenever I eat, it always happens.. I can even feel it when I'm laying down in bed, it feels the exact same. I cannot sleep hardly because of it.. Some people are saying just to vomit to get rid of it but I just can't! I don't want to!
Thing is, WHY is this happening anyway? If it is vomit, then why? I've had this well over a year now and it's only recently gotten worse in the past 4 months or so.
I've been to the doctors several times over this issue now. Firstly they thought it was anxiety, then acid reflux, which they prescribed me medication for which didn't even work... (Gaviscon and Omerprazole). Now they're assuming it's anxiety again, when I'm almost certain it isn't.
My parents also think it's all anxiety and are getting sick of me complaining over it. It's really depressing me, because I can't live like this for the rest of my life.... I'm not ever going to let myself vomit, because I just can't and don't want to. Anyways even if I did, it may just come back again so what's the point?
It's getting awfully tempting to just end my life, because everyday I'm suffering and struggling to get through the day. As if anyone would care if I was gone anyway....
But anyway... Does anyone know what this is??? It's driving me nuts!!