DreamsInSpace2
17-12-12, 12:13
I am really worried. I am aware of the changes of the cervix etc. when it comes to your period and so forth and have often checked it for around a year maybe more therefore very aware of how it feels. I am aware how it feels when lower, higher and so forth and know what its like when I am due a period and often used it as an indicator so when I felt it this morning I got a fright when I felt a lump on it. It is round, bumpy and very hard. It has never ever been there before and as I said I am always checking this area of me (sorry if that is weird or something though just read in a magazine it is recommended you do anyways) but yeah this gave me a fright, had no idea what it was and it's still there. I don't remember when I last checked maybe 2-3 weeks ago and I am scared to be honest. I am really frightened in case it is something to worry about, all sorts of thoughts running through my head. It's pea sized and protrudes slightly. I felt it this morning when I awoke and checked it before as I remembered it after reading the magazine article and checked again, still there and now I am getting lower cramps in uterine area after feeling for it again. I am so worried and hope it is nothing to worry about and just a cyst or something. i did notice a change in smell of discharge few days back which is making me even more paranoid. I hope it's nothing. I had a doctors appt booked this morning to talk about fatigue I experience sometimes but I keep cancelling last minute because I am Emetophobic and petrified at the moment of germs so finding it a real battle to get to the doctors but I am really worried bout this but I am worried bout germs too. I don't know what to do. Has anyone ever had anything similar? I am really paranoid and scared. i am 20. Praying it is nothing.