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18-12-12, 23:00
I suffer from anxiety and depression.
I wouldn't say that I have it bad although I do contemplate suicide on a weekly basis. The thing which has always stopped me from acting on these thoughts was that I didn't want to upset my friends and family. Recently I've ended up thinking that they would understand, meaning now I have nothing preventing me. I go through weeks where I'm fine but then other weeks I begin to make plans. I really don't enjoy life anymore and I feel like I'm just waiting for my life to pass.
I don't want to go to the doctors. I was prescribed citalopram for my anxiety before. This didn't help at all and I ended up getting withdrawal symptoms for weeks afterwards.
I have no idea what to do. Don't know if I should just carry on as normal and hope I begin to enjoy things more or just call it a day.
I wouldn't say that I have it bad although I do contemplate suicide on a weekly basis. The thing which has always stopped me from acting on these thoughts was that I didn't want to upset my friends and family. Recently I've ended up thinking that they would understand, meaning now I have nothing preventing me. I go through weeks where I'm fine but then other weeks I begin to make plans. I really don't enjoy life anymore and I feel like I'm just waiting for my life to pass.
I don't want to go to the doctors. I was prescribed citalopram for my anxiety before. This didn't help at all and I ended up getting withdrawal symptoms for weeks afterwards.
I have no idea what to do. Don't know if I should just carry on as normal and hope I begin to enjoy things more or just call it a day.